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The show seemed to go amazingly well today for both performances...
that was until the director saw me afterwards for notes. I still got a really negative vibe from him.
to make things worse, then i've plunged into an evening of being really insecure and upset about drama school, about not moving to the US, the complete inability i have at the moment to even veer anywhere near a love life and the lack of security in my future.
I know that they're all things that will sort themselves out. And even tomorrow everything will seem fine- i'm more just commenting on how ridiculous it is that i'm so underconfident at the moment that just having the director negate part of my performance sent what should have been a fab night of cool feelings into something shitty.
I really hope something turns up in time. I'm probably looking too hard, though.
that was until the director saw me afterwards for notes. I still got a really negative vibe from him.
to make things worse, then i've plunged into an evening of being really insecure and upset about drama school, about not moving to the US, the complete inability i have at the moment to even veer anywhere near a love life and the lack of security in my future.
I know that they're all things that will sort themselves out. And even tomorrow everything will seem fine- i'm more just commenting on how ridiculous it is that i'm so underconfident at the moment that just having the director negate part of my performance sent what should have been a fab night of cool feelings into something shitty.
I really hope something turns up in time. I'm probably looking too hard, though.