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So, yeah, I haven't updated this shit in for-fucking-ever. So I thought I might. :D
Christmas just passed and a New Year is upon us. Hooray. Who really gives a shit? New Years is just an excuse to drink yourself retarded and pass out, then wake up the next morning wondering why you feel like shit. What the hell is that? In the new year, nothing is changed, at all. Life goes on the same way it did the year before. Resolutions are never kept, why are they made? Is there seriously a point to any of it?
But yeah. Aside from that, I am in possession of knowledge that my grandpa wants out of his marriage. The sad, fucked up thing is that I understand why he wants out. I won't lie, grandma can be a severe pain in the ass, but I had no idea as to the depth of her apathy until grandpa told me how she treated him. He was freezing his ass off for whatever reason (remember, my grandpa has been "blessed" with shitty legs all of his life and believe it or not, those legs can make him deadly ill, it's happened before), and he asked her if she would move closer to him to help keep him warm. What did she do, you ask? She turned away from him and paid no attention. That's a really welcome and loving personality. My grandpa has been working his ass off to pay the bills in this fucking household, and he has to deal with that bullshit? That is just fucking wrong, there is nothing more to it than it just being fucking wrong. Also, he told me that a few years ago they had talked about splitting up. Grandpa said something along the lines of "What do you think would happen if we split up?" to which she responded "Do whatever you think is right." No offer to talk about it, no "let's work this out", none of that shit. That is the most disrespectful thing I have ever heard. When my grandpa told me this, he started crying. A 62 year old hardass, crying. That's not faking it, that is genuine emotion. It's the only time I've seen my grandpa cry. My grandpa is not one to bullshit, I know what he's feeling. I had no idea that my grandpa is just like me, somewhat hard on the outside, but easily broken. I honestly have no idea what I'm gonna do if they do take a split. I would miss the hell out of him, I wouldn't tell him, but I would. My grandpa and I have gotten a lot closer lately, to the point where I'm the only person he's told about this. I just don't know how things are gonna work out.. I'm really afraid of the whole thing. I can only imagine how our family would be changed if all this shit does go down.
Christmas just passed and a New Year is upon us. Hooray. Who really gives a shit? New Years is just an excuse to drink yourself retarded and pass out, then wake up the next morning wondering why you feel like shit. What the hell is that? In the new year, nothing is changed, at all. Life goes on the same way it did the year before. Resolutions are never kept, why are they made? Is there seriously a point to any of it?
But yeah. Aside from that, I am in possession of knowledge that my grandpa wants out of his marriage. The sad, fucked up thing is that I understand why he wants out. I won't lie, grandma can be a severe pain in the ass, but I had no idea as to the depth of her apathy until grandpa told me how she treated him. He was freezing his ass off for whatever reason (remember, my grandpa has been "blessed" with shitty legs all of his life and believe it or not, those legs can make him deadly ill, it's happened before), and he asked her if she would move closer to him to help keep him warm. What did she do, you ask? She turned away from him and paid no attention. That's a really welcome and loving personality. My grandpa has been working his ass off to pay the bills in this fucking household, and he has to deal with that bullshit? That is just fucking wrong, there is nothing more to it than it just being fucking wrong. Also, he told me that a few years ago they had talked about splitting up. Grandpa said something along the lines of "What do you think would happen if we split up?" to which she responded "Do whatever you think is right." No offer to talk about it, no "let's work this out", none of that shit. That is the most disrespectful thing I have ever heard. When my grandpa told me this, he started crying. A 62 year old hardass, crying. That's not faking it, that is genuine emotion. It's the only time I've seen my grandpa cry. My grandpa is not one to bullshit, I know what he's feeling. I had no idea that my grandpa is just like me, somewhat hard on the outside, but easily broken. I honestly have no idea what I'm gonna do if they do take a split. I would miss the hell out of him, I wouldn't tell him, but I would. My grandpa and I have gotten a lot closer lately, to the point where I'm the only person he's told about this. I just don't know how things are gonna work out.. I'm really afraid of the whole thing. I can only imagine how our family would be changed if all this shit does go down.