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hey all. yeah lots of new stuff. first of all, i found out there was a computer available at saint pauls. second, and most importantly, sam broke up with me yesterday. and its been exacly one day as of an hour and 22 minutes ago. thats the longest ive been single since august. and it really feels weird. not quite sure what to do with myself, so i wrote a very good, but emo song. and now i have to write guitar for it. but its the first good thing ive written. yeah. but i do miss sam. i really did love her. i still do. and it hurts knowing that theres not going to be anymore nights on bardstown road( at least not like the were), which were oh so fun. i sorta saw the whole thing coming though, you know. i mean she never really opened up to me and that hurt more than any of it, even the breakup. but my mind keeps drifting back to that night in cherokee park when she told me that she loved me. i know she meant it back then at least. but hey, its not like things are going to reverse back to the way that they were, (damnit) so theres no use in moping around. i just want sam to know that i do love herand i'll always be here for her, and maybe sometime in the future if she is ready for this kind of relationship, then i'll still be here. but she is right. 4 months is a long time anfd im greatful for the time we had. but for right now, i'm single, and im loving it! (more or less)