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FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I had the most awesome cathartic message written and then it died.
Thing is I'm not feeling all that anger or frustration anymore so there's no point is just copying down what I feel.
Long story short.
All you fuckers who were in my life and aren't there to make me a better person or teach or anything else, we're done.
I'm cutting away what and who I don't need. I'm not going to let the anxiety and depression get worse.
Who was there when I cut myself or drank so much. Who talked down my crying fits or fears and told me I wasn't the piece of shit I'd been treated like for 20+ years.
It wasn't any of you... They know who they are and they know I appreciate and love them for everything they've done.
To the others, though most of you will never see this or hear it from my lips.
Fuck you.
I don't need the promises or bragging or useless suggestions or preaching.
You're not me and while I appreciate the intent, you're not going to change my mind.
I know who I am and that the little cracked pieces are still holding me together so I don't need you to fix me.
I am better without you and your influence. I'm done being the doormat and the kind, gentle kid. I am a my own person and she's saying "Fuck you." too.
I had the most awesome cathartic message written and then it died.
Thing is I'm not feeling all that anger or frustration anymore so there's no point is just copying down what I feel.
Long story short.
All you fuckers who were in my life and aren't there to make me a better person or teach or anything else, we're done.
I'm cutting away what and who I don't need. I'm not going to let the anxiety and depression get worse.
Who was there when I cut myself or drank so much. Who talked down my crying fits or fears and told me I wasn't the piece of shit I'd been treated like for 20+ years.
It wasn't any of you... They know who they are and they know I appreciate and love them for everything they've done.
To the others, though most of you will never see this or hear it from my lips.
Fuck you.
I don't need the promises or bragging or useless suggestions or preaching.
You're not me and while I appreciate the intent, you're not going to change my mind.
I know who I am and that the little cracked pieces are still holding me together so I don't need you to fix me.
I am better without you and your influence. I'm done being the doormat and the kind, gentle kid. I am a my own person and she's saying "Fuck you." too.