Blah blah blah
Mnhhhh.
[/puts face in hands]
I am so sick of being around people. I just spent a week and a half around people - and while I love my friends very much, it was definitely more time spent around people than I'd usually do. And now, I'm constantly stuck around people AGAIN, with zero privacy. None whatsoever.
And of course, I can't go anywhere, because my relatives live on an acreage. There isn't any public transport or anything. I'd love to be able to fuck off to a cafe for a few hours, or a library or something, but this is not possible.
I really, really need to Not Be Around People.
Haven't been able to write much of anything since the evacuation, and I think it might be because I'm constantly around people. Just need some time alone. But I don't know when/how I can get that. Ughhh.
Maybe I can go hide in the basement? Or - well, there are walking trails nearby, I'd just have to find some bugspray... Maybe I can take the dogs on a million walks. Every day. orz
And ugh, it really does not help that my mother is just... way too optimistic. No, don't be ridiculous, of course you're going to have to buy a new fridge and deep freeze when we get back, whenever that will be. And no, we are not going to be back home by the end of the month.
I'm trying to take all of this well, but it's like. It's hard. These people are driving me crazy, and the news is depressing, and just. Ugh. ...Fortunately, mental health-wise, I feel like things are actually going relatively well in that regard. But, jfc. I just. [/vague handgesture indicating I don't have the vocabulary to express my feelings on this bullshit]
Aaaand my brother says that he might be heading to Peace River at the start of next month for a job there. I understand - he needs to work, after all - but man, I don't want to be trapped with my parents.
Ugh, I feel like this is all I talk about these days. Which really sucks - I don't want this bullshit to consume my life - but... this is what's going on right now. So. I dunno.
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[/puts face in hands]
I am so sick of being around people. I just spent a week and a half around people - and while I love my friends very much, it was definitely more time spent around people than I'd usually do. And now, I'm constantly stuck around people AGAIN, with zero privacy. None whatsoever.
And of course, I can't go anywhere, because my relatives live on an acreage. There isn't any public transport or anything. I'd love to be able to fuck off to a cafe for a few hours, or a library or something, but this is not possible.
I really, really need to Not Be Around People.
Haven't been able to write much of anything since the evacuation, and I think it might be because I'm constantly around people. Just need some time alone. But I don't know when/how I can get that. Ughhh.
Maybe I can go hide in the basement? Or - well, there are walking trails nearby, I'd just have to find some bugspray... Maybe I can take the dogs on a million walks. Every day. orz
And ugh, it really does not help that my mother is just... way too optimistic. No, don't be ridiculous, of course you're going to have to buy a new fridge and deep freeze when we get back, whenever that will be. And no, we are not going to be back home by the end of the month.
I'm trying to take all of this well, but it's like. It's hard. These people are driving me crazy, and the news is depressing, and just. Ugh. ...Fortunately, mental health-wise, I feel like things are actually going relatively well in that regard. But, jfc. I just. [/vague handgesture indicating I don't have the vocabulary to express my feelings on this bullshit]
Aaaand my brother says that he might be heading to Peace River at the start of next month for a job there. I understand - he needs to work, after all - but man, I don't want to be trapped with my parents.
Ugh, I feel like this is all I talk about these days. Which really sucks - I don't want this bullshit to consume my life - but... this is what's going on right now. So. I dunno.
This entry was originally posted at http://yuuago.dreamwidth.org/3481169.html. You can comment here or at the original entry.