Apr 22, 2008 02:14
I was really touched by the kind gestures of my friends.. church, cell, colleagues, friends from Uni, some friends I met outside of work and studies, him. The more things they do for me, the more I know I will miss them. Maybe if they had been nonchalant about it, there would be a lot less tears. I cried, a lot.
I cried when I saw what Jimmy did for me, the collage of pics, capturing all the happy moments we shared. Capturing all my different looks, and reminding me how much I've aged, and grown.. :-)
Nothing beats the time spent with him last night. For once, we both put down our egos and talk. Many times, I wanted to just hold his hand when we were walking pass all the places we've been to. HIs favourite Starbucks. The area outside Marina Square where everything started. I wanted so much to take him to Hong Lim Complex, where I first planted a kiss on him. I wished I could turn back the time, giving him the first kiss, starting all over again, loving him the way he wants me to..... We both wept. Never have I seen him cried like that.
When I read my best friend's letter to me on the plane, thinking that I have cried too much to have anymore tears. I was so wrong. I was quite convinced by Steve that it's just HK. It's so near. Nothing much will change. When I was reminded that I'll be gone "indefinitely". That we won't be able to do what we always do, anytime we want, I wept. So much the Stewardess had to ask me if I was alright. I sure freaked out the Korean guy beside me. :-)
This time, I really learn to cherish time. Cherish the people around me that God blesses me with. Treating people the way they deserve. I was complacent, thinking that I will have a lot of time after I end work on the 18th. "ren shuan bu ru tian shuan!" Suddenly, I have to be here today, and that sure changed a lot of my plans. I feel really sorry for the friends whom I couldn't catch up with before I left.
I've checked into my "apartment". Actually, the so called studio is nothing different from a Hotel room. So, I'll be putting up at this place for a month before I settle down on a permanent home.
Work starts tomorrow. Let's hope all will be good. Thanks for your well wishes.