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I have a lot on my mind. Being faced with a job change brings into questions a career change and that in turn effects a life change. The big questions have to be asked and hopefully answered. What do I want? What makes me happy? What do I need to do to be responsible? Where am I going? How can I get there? and so on and so forth.
Some interesting insights have come from looking within for answers.
- I don't want to raise my child without a spiritual faith. I listened to my heart and realized that spiritual faith is so very important to me yet I do nothing about it. Paul and I went to Christ Alive the other week but I found it quite dry. If I can't sit through a service there's no way I can expect Brandon to. So I'm still on a quest to find a child friendly (re: entertaining) place of worship, and no, the denomination or event the faith doesn't really matter to me. Faith is Faith in all it's forms.
- I am considering applying for a job with the Posties. I like possessing the skill of a baker. I haven't even learned a 10th of what I want to know and it's the kind of knowledge you glean from a working kitchen not a recipe book. I know why recipes ask you to do things in a certain way and I know a lot of the shortcuts. I like creating baked goods. I won't have any pride saying "I sort mail". I'm proud to say "yes, I made that cake". So pride in a creative skill is very important to me.
- I have a lot of fear. Specifically fear of failure and that's what holds me back. I also lack self confidence. I was surprised by how much.
- Brandon and Paul are the only two things in my life (ok, you might add tattoos to the list) that I've committed to. Everything else I can walk away from. I want to extend that resolve into my newly forming work ethic (I don't have one at the moment).
That's it for now. I want to expand on my thread about spiritual faith but right now I have to get started redoing my resume, I need to write it in quantifying terms *groan*
I'm reading Life After God by Douglas Coupland, I'm not sure if I'm missing the point or if I completely get it.
Some interesting insights have come from looking within for answers.
- I don't want to raise my child without a spiritual faith. I listened to my heart and realized that spiritual faith is so very important to me yet I do nothing about it. Paul and I went to Christ Alive the other week but I found it quite dry. If I can't sit through a service there's no way I can expect Brandon to. So I'm still on a quest to find a child friendly (re: entertaining) place of worship, and no, the denomination or event the faith doesn't really matter to me. Faith is Faith in all it's forms.
- I am considering applying for a job with the Posties. I like possessing the skill of a baker. I haven't even learned a 10th of what I want to know and it's the kind of knowledge you glean from a working kitchen not a recipe book. I know why recipes ask you to do things in a certain way and I know a lot of the shortcuts. I like creating baked goods. I won't have any pride saying "I sort mail". I'm proud to say "yes, I made that cake". So pride in a creative skill is very important to me.
- I have a lot of fear. Specifically fear of failure and that's what holds me back. I also lack self confidence. I was surprised by how much.
- Brandon and Paul are the only two things in my life (ok, you might add tattoos to the list) that I've committed to. Everything else I can walk away from. I want to extend that resolve into my newly forming work ethic (I don't have one at the moment).
That's it for now. I want to expand on my thread about spiritual faith but right now I have to get started redoing my resume, I need to write it in quantifying terms *groan*
I'm reading Life After God by Douglas Coupland, I'm not sure if I'm missing the point or if I completely get it.