pt 8 Boys Boys Boys

[yummiemattie]

boys, boys, boys
what they do when you turn your head
put your attention on something else
and they look to another
touch it
just for a second
put in your mouth
why can't you just be right
I thought you were my mr. right
but apparently you where just mr right now
I trusted you
but you lied
again and again
I was all yours
and I wasn't enough for you
it makes sense
I can see why
boy, boy, boys
so here I am again sitting in front of a flickering monitor
writing to no one
*sigh*
there was a time when I looked into your eyes that I saw everything
but now when I look I see nothing
I see the space that everything left behind
"I don't know why?" you say
I am sorry that's not good enough for me
what happened to I will follow you in to the dark?
tell me. who are you following now ...
because it's not me anymore
you saw something
and you think I can't see
I am a fool to think it will stop
I am a fool to think you want me and no one else
it's ok though you aren't the first to hurt me like this
but I never saw it coming from you
never once did I see it coming
like a slap from my mom
.... wake up little one
for I am with you
do not be fooled by these hopless romantic ideas of truth and love
it is not for you
you are an object to be used
a mere toy in a toy store
boys will browse
boys will play
and then boys will through you away
for this years new model!
.... boys, boys, boys
....made by mattel