I guess the only times I actually stay long here are the times when I plan on typing something...
Uh, I'm sorry if I've gone on hiatus. I only get to quickly scan LJ.
So, I did get a bit of BSOD after over-thinking whether or not I was annoying him because he didn't reply anymore. And then come the next weekend, he texted again. So I was happy again but I did my best to stop asking so much questions.
So, personally, I wasn't able to see a glimpse of him for two whole weeks, and so did my friend with her crush. (Week 1 was our one-week vacation and during week 2, we only had 2 days of being inside the school since there were no classes that Monday and Thursday was our field trip while Friday our 'rest day'. My crush's field trip was Tuesday so he was gone Wednesday.)
-this paragraph is only partially related to my topic-
During our field trip, at some point, I sat at the middle chair in our school bus (the one on the aisle between a pair of two-seaters). Because the travel time from one destination to the next was so effin' long (seriously, it was more than thirty minutes!), quite a few of my classmates napped. I'm not the type to do that because I know they're the best for candid shots. So anyways, my friend who was seated by my left really made me laugh. She fell asleep and, boy, was she headbanging--in a different way xD (headbanging = the head going forward, right? Well, hers was going sidewards). And when I say that, I mean it. We were quite shocked she managed to sleep through such movements. At some point, during the trip, the bus made a sharp turn so she nearly slammed on to me but instead she just bounced on the arm rest (well, only her upper body was moving since we were all seated) and slammed onto another sleeping friend (in our row, I was the only one awake although I woke the others up to watch her, sort of). Another time, she was totally tilting my way. As in, her hair was going all over my face already. And now, I've found out, all those times, she thought that she was only sitting straight and not moving at all. roflmao.
-off-topic paragraph over-
And then, so anyways, ever since we got back to regular class schedules, I've been doing my best to go to the library during break times as that is the only place I get to see him daily (I'm not stalking!) Sometimes, I end up sitting far away from him, sometimes quite near (I'm counting tables, not chairs).
After taking our tests, our English teacher asked us to help her check the papers. I was telling my seatmate that I had a 99.9% chance I wouldn't get his paper since only my friends knew about me having a crush. She even joked that I should round it off to a hundred so I asked her if she wanted me to drop it down to 89% so that I had a bigger chance. We continued joking about it while I wrote his name illegibly, when suddenly, a friend approached me (we're seated at the back, by the corner) and gave me a test paper. My first reaction was to go O_O but then I noticed our teacher approaching so I hid his paper (I knew it was his since my friend sits far away from me and I doubt she'd hand over something like that unless it was significant) and scribbled my seatmate's name, also illegibly. Our teacher handed us test papers since she saw none were on our table and as she approached, my friend started hiding my crush's name, worrying that everyone will think he's her crush if our teacher notices. So there, I checked his paper (and read his essay answer which sort of confused me) and hugged my friend for giving it to me. So yeah, PUT FAITH IN THOSE 0.1%'s, my friends! (If it's something you like but can't get. If it's something you don't like, put more faith in the 99.9!)
Then, sometime last week, he accidentally dropped his phone in a shared cab. Of course I was sad as that would mean I would lose contact with him. So I just wished him luck although I doubted a little that he'd get it back (there are a lot of dishonest people commuting, especially here). The next day, we had our C.A.T. stuff but since we only had half-day, we only checked attendance. After dismissing the non-officers, we had a meeting with our commandant. He regrouped us and I prayed so hard to be groupmates with my crush...and guess what, HE IS MY GROUPMATE!! <3
So, after we got grouped, our commandant started blabbing about something and I was all high again because I was right beside him. At some point, because he was rushing for who knows what, he was joking around telling me to tell our commandant that he'll go home already. I wouldn't agree because I knew for a fact our commandant would just get mad at him.
Then, that night, I received a text message from him. Apparently, he got his phone back (the driver returned it, he said) so I was all happy again.
This week, the places I've been sitting in the library have been getting good. Twice I sat a table away from him. And in one of those days (let me illustrate)
(legend: ---- = table; c = me; m = him; a = my friend; y = someone I was talking to; x = everyone else
xxxxxxxxxxx
___________
xxmxxxxxxx (yeah, our seats are back-to-back)
ayxxxxxxxxx
___________
cxxxxxxxxxx
as you can see, he was seated so close to me. In fact he kept sitting facing left so I couldn't really keep looking at him as he would notice it from the corner of his eyes. I was just glad that he was diagonally behind someone who kept chatting with me so I was able to look at him without it being noticeable (aka my focus was the one I was talking to but my attention was on my crush...did I make sense? It's just like staring at a pencil right in front of you but doing your best to still trying to take in everything around the pencil without fully losing focus on it. I don't think I'm making sense...) but other than that, he kept moving around. At some point, he was standing behind me with his back to me. So, my friend changed seats (we were joking him about something) and started pointing at my crush while nudging me. At some point, he even put his hand on the table when he passed and since I was on the edge, I was like 'he was soooooooo close!'
Then, the other day, because my friend left me to search for the owner of something, I asked him, through Facebook, to ask his classmates who owns it, in case it was in his class. He agreed, he even told me to give it to him instead but I told him I wouldn't because if the owner isn't in his class, wouldn't I end up just burdening him? I wanted so much to ask him in person yesterday if he already asked but my friends didn't want to go up so I ended up staying in the canteen with them. So, in the end, I only talked to him through FB again.
But...
TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY! EVER!!
During recess, I ended up sitting nearly across him (he was, after all, right across my seatmate) when I was in the library. I was already happy during the going-to-the-library part because I saw him right away. I got happier when I saw him again exit the library (a bit sad though because that insinuated that he left it). Then, I saw a friend of mine whom he usually sits with in the library so I sat beside her while my friends did something else. Then, he returned to the library and sat across my friend. It was like heaven <3 I was even able to say a little something to him. :D
During lunch time, I decided to join this friend again, hoping for a repeat, but I didn't work out as the table he was sitting in was fully occupied.
But, that's not the best! Like I said, he's in my group during CAT, right? So, I was able to talk to him a lot. And I had two friends in that group who kept wiggling their eyebrows and smiling at me. There was even this one command which my crush couldn't remember so he kept asking me, but kept smiling because he kept forgetting and I found that SO CUTE! He rarely smiles in pictures but I love his smile. Oh yeah, and I even kept standing right beside him <3 Oh, and at some point, because I was bothered by his uniform (it was messy!) I held the loose fold (our tops our supposed to be properly tucked in) of his shirt and said something along the lines of "why's this out like this/why is this so loose?" THAT'S LIKE ONE OF THE RAREST TIMES I GET TO NOT ONLY BE SO CLOSE TO HIM BUT I GET TO TOUCH HIM. I'm happy tapping his shoulder but I prefer this a hundred times more~
---a totally unrelated paragraph---
Last Friday, (that time I found out my crush is my groupmate) some friends and I went to SM:MoA and we spent half the day by the bay. I;m only sharing this because this was one of my most embarrassing experiences ever. There's this wall thing there that's only like 2.5 feet high which people could sit on (it's that high so that when it's high tide, the water doesn't wet everything right away). My friends wanted to sit on it, and they forced me to. I say forced because I don't like struggling to sit on seats above my knees' height. I never made it a habit. So anyways, I tried to and I looked utterly stupid. A friend who saw me (they were walking towards us) started laughing like anything because I was struggling. And I really wanted to beat him up then and there. Well, they're only half over it by now. Thankfully it isn't brought up much anymore.
So, I did get a bit of BSOD after over-thinking whether or not I was annoying him because he didn't reply anymore. And then come the next weekend, he texted again. So I was happy again but I did my best to stop asking so much questions.
So, personally, I wasn't able to see a glimpse of him for two whole weeks, and so did my friend with her crush. (Week 1 was our one-week vacation and during week 2, we only had 2 days of being inside the school since there were no classes that Monday and Thursday was our field trip while Friday our 'rest day'. My crush's field trip was Tuesday so he was gone Wednesday.)
-this paragraph is only partially related to my topic-
During our field trip, at some point, I sat at the middle chair in our school bus (the one on the aisle between a pair of two-seaters). Because the travel time from one destination to the next was so effin' long (seriously, it was more than thirty minutes!), quite a few of my classmates napped. I'm not the type to do that because I know they're the best for candid shots. So anyways, my friend who was seated by my left really made me laugh. She fell asleep and, boy, was she headbanging--in a different way xD (headbanging = the head going forward, right? Well, hers was going sidewards). And when I say that, I mean it. We were quite shocked she managed to sleep through such movements. At some point, during the trip, the bus made a sharp turn so she nearly slammed on to me but instead she just bounced on the arm rest (well, only her upper body was moving since we were all seated) and slammed onto another sleeping friend (in our row, I was the only one awake although I woke the others up to watch her, sort of). Another time, she was totally tilting my way. As in, her hair was going all over my face already. And now, I've found out, all those times, she thought that she was only sitting straight and not moving at all. roflmao.
-off-topic paragraph over-
And then, so anyways, ever since we got back to regular class schedules, I've been doing my best to go to the library during break times as that is the only place I get to see him daily (I'm not stalking!) Sometimes, I end up sitting far away from him, sometimes quite near (I'm counting tables, not chairs).
After taking our tests, our English teacher asked us to help her check the papers. I was telling my seatmate that I had a 99.9% chance I wouldn't get his paper since only my friends knew about me having a crush. She even joked that I should round it off to a hundred so I asked her if she wanted me to drop it down to 89% so that I had a bigger chance. We continued joking about it while I wrote his name illegibly, when suddenly, a friend approached me (we're seated at the back, by the corner) and gave me a test paper. My first reaction was to go O_O but then I noticed our teacher approaching so I hid his paper (I knew it was his since my friend sits far away from me and I doubt she'd hand over something like that unless it was significant) and scribbled my seatmate's name, also illegibly. Our teacher handed us test papers since she saw none were on our table and as she approached, my friend started hiding my crush's name, worrying that everyone will think he's her crush if our teacher notices. So there, I checked his paper (and read his essay answer which sort of confused me) and hugged my friend for giving it to me. So yeah, PUT FAITH IN THOSE 0.1%'s, my friends! (If it's something you like but can't get. If it's something you don't like, put more faith in the 99.9!)
Then, sometime last week, he accidentally dropped his phone in a shared cab. Of course I was sad as that would mean I would lose contact with him. So I just wished him luck although I doubted a little that he'd get it back (there are a lot of dishonest people commuting, especially here). The next day, we had our C.A.T. stuff but since we only had half-day, we only checked attendance. After dismissing the non-officers, we had a meeting with our commandant. He regrouped us and I prayed so hard to be groupmates with my crush...and guess what, HE IS MY GROUPMATE!! <3
So, after we got grouped, our commandant started blabbing about something and I was all high again because I was right beside him. At some point, because he was rushing for who knows what, he was joking around telling me to tell our commandant that he'll go home already. I wouldn't agree because I knew for a fact our commandant would just get mad at him.
Then, that night, I received a text message from him. Apparently, he got his phone back (the driver returned it, he said) so I was all happy again.
This week, the places I've been sitting in the library have been getting good. Twice I sat a table away from him. And in one of those days (let me illustrate)
(legend: ---- = table; c = me; m = him; a = my friend; y = someone I was talking to; x = everyone else
xxxxxxxxxxx
___________
xxmxxxxxxx (yeah, our seats are back-to-back)
ayxxxxxxxxx
___________
cxxxxxxxxxx
as you can see, he was seated so close to me. In fact he kept sitting facing left so I couldn't really keep looking at him as he would notice it from the corner of his eyes. I was just glad that he was diagonally behind someone who kept chatting with me so I was able to look at him without it being noticeable (aka my focus was the one I was talking to but my attention was on my crush...did I make sense? It's just like staring at a pencil right in front of you but doing your best to still trying to take in everything around the pencil without fully losing focus on it. I don't think I'm making sense...) but other than that, he kept moving around. At some point, he was standing behind me with his back to me. So, my friend changed seats (we were joking him about something) and started pointing at my crush while nudging me. At some point, he even put his hand on the table when he passed and since I was on the edge, I was like 'he was soooooooo close!'
Then, the other day, because my friend left me to search for the owner of something, I asked him, through Facebook, to ask his classmates who owns it, in case it was in his class. He agreed, he even told me to give it to him instead but I told him I wouldn't because if the owner isn't in his class, wouldn't I end up just burdening him? I wanted so much to ask him in person yesterday if he already asked but my friends didn't want to go up so I ended up staying in the canteen with them. So, in the end, I only talked to him through FB again.
But...
TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY! EVER!!
During recess, I ended up sitting nearly across him (he was, after all, right across my seatmate) when I was in the library. I was already happy during the going-to-the-library part because I saw him right away. I got happier when I saw him again exit the library (a bit sad though because that insinuated that he left it). Then, I saw a friend of mine whom he usually sits with in the library so I sat beside her while my friends did something else. Then, he returned to the library and sat across my friend. It was like heaven <3 I was even able to say a little something to him. :D
During lunch time, I decided to join this friend again, hoping for a repeat, but I didn't work out as the table he was sitting in was fully occupied.
But, that's not the best! Like I said, he's in my group during CAT, right? So, I was able to talk to him a lot. And I had two friends in that group who kept wiggling their eyebrows and smiling at me. There was even this one command which my crush couldn't remember so he kept asking me, but kept smiling because he kept forgetting and I found that SO CUTE! He rarely smiles in pictures but I love his smile. Oh yeah, and I even kept standing right beside him <3 Oh, and at some point, because I was bothered by his uniform (it was messy!) I held the loose fold (our tops our supposed to be properly tucked in) of his shirt and said something along the lines of "why's this out like this/why is this so loose?" THAT'S LIKE ONE OF THE RAREST TIMES I GET TO NOT ONLY BE SO CLOSE TO HIM BUT I GET TO TOUCH HIM. I'm happy tapping his shoulder but I prefer this a hundred times more~
---a totally unrelated paragraph---
Last Friday, (that time I found out my crush is my groupmate) some friends and I went to SM:MoA and we spent half the day by the bay. I;m only sharing this because this was one of my most embarrassing experiences ever. There's this wall thing there that's only like 2.5 feet high which people could sit on (it's that high so that when it's high tide, the water doesn't wet everything right away). My friends wanted to sit on it, and they forced me to. I say forced because I don't like struggling to sit on seats above my knees' height. I never made it a habit. So anyways, I tried to and I looked utterly stupid. A friend who saw me (they were walking towards us) started laughing like anything because I was struggling. And I really wanted to beat him up then and there. Well, they're only half over it by now. Thankfully it isn't brought up much anymore.