Olives
I dremt I was eating green pimento olives. I've only tried small slivers hidden in sandwiches. In my dream they were vinegary and rubbery like hard boiled egg white. I didn't particularly like them but I wanted to keep trying.
I had had a fight with Ryan the night before. He had been talking about trying to figure things out so we could have a future together. It's nothing more than a fantasy but I fall for it every time. I start thinking how nice it would be if it did work out. But when I said I had a sore throat he up and left. I told him I really didn't want to be alone then, that I wanted him to stay. He argued that he was making the responsible choice, leaving so he didn't chance getting sick. I knew he'd always put himself first even when I needed someone to be there for me.
I did not in fact get sick. Either way, it was a good kick in the gut to remind me not to stay too close to him. He abandoned me so easily. I'm glad at least he felt really bad about it. I asked God to hold me that night, and I felt my Grandmothers lay with me too. They held me with my tears, giving me strength to be stronger myself. Thank you. I felt warm.
So I looked up the dream and it says eating olives represent healing and immortality. It seemed pretty significant. I am so blessed. My weekend was so full of good people. The Jurassic Hardcore party, Games Night, and my Cuddle Party was epic.
I had had a fight with Ryan the night before. He had been talking about trying to figure things out so we could have a future together. It's nothing more than a fantasy but I fall for it every time. I start thinking how nice it would be if it did work out. But when I said I had a sore throat he up and left. I told him I really didn't want to be alone then, that I wanted him to stay. He argued that he was making the responsible choice, leaving so he didn't chance getting sick. I knew he'd always put himself first even when I needed someone to be there for me.
I did not in fact get sick. Either way, it was a good kick in the gut to remind me not to stay too close to him. He abandoned me so easily. I'm glad at least he felt really bad about it. I asked God to hold me that night, and I felt my Grandmothers lay with me too. They held me with my tears, giving me strength to be stronger myself. Thank you. I felt warm.
So I looked up the dream and it says eating olives represent healing and immortality. It seemed pretty significant. I am so blessed. My weekend was so full of good people. The Jurassic Hardcore party, Games Night, and my Cuddle Party was epic.