Post explained
I figured for the people that know what went down I owe an explanation for last night's drunken post.
In essence, somehow Nightwind got unblocked. I blame Meebo cause I would NEVER unblock him on purpose. He started up this conversation:
[16:59] e: I just find it interesting that you once professed to love me, and were once inseparable to a good friend of mine, and now as time has progressed, neither of us hears from you anymore.
[17:00] Yuko: Hrm, have you forgotten what led up to this?
[17:01] e: eh, yes and no. It's not like you were innocent by any means.
[17:04] Yuko: I wasn't, but the way it went down doesn't absolve either of you either
[17:04] Yuko: and the way you treated me after
[17:05] E: ah, yes, my treatment after the fallout. Honestly, you were the catalyst, and it was based off your actions that I treated you the way I did.
[17:05] Yuko: Honestly? At this point it doesn't matter
[17:05] Yuko: What's done is done.
[17:06] e: yeah. like I said, I just find it interesting.
[17:06] Yuko: how so?
[17:08] e: for a majority of the reasons I previously stated. To say you love someone so much, to say someone is close enough to you to be your sister, and then to totally abandon both parties, not to mention to do what you did to them, kinda... how do I say. It's hypocritical, at the least. But, I'm saying this from the most objective standpoint that I can.
[17:09] Yuko: I didn't abandon you, I walked away from what was hurting me the most in the situation
[17:09] Yuko: You don't keep walking into a dagger after it stabs you
[17:10] e: See... after all this time, you still point to others as the catalyst for our breakup. It's not me, or Jessica, or even your old master that caused it - it was you.
[17:10] Yuko: I never said that
[17:10] e: it's in how you act.
[17:10] Yuko: I never said that it was any of you
[17:10] e: and in how you present your argument.
[17:10] Yuko: No, it's not. That's how you take it
[17:11] e: "you don't keep walking into a dagger..." right after you talk about me. How else is that statement to be inferred?
[17:12] Yuko: That even AFTER the break up you guys kept putting me down and blaming me and hurting me further when you really didn't have to. You kept doing things to hurt me even after I gave you a chance
[17:12] Yuko: So I walked away
[17:13] e: Oh, the fallout period? Yeah. You refused to recognize any fault of your own, you pinned the blame on other parties, you tried to play the victim and entice sympathy from us, and you still refused to follow the criteria I had originally set up.
[17:14] Yuko: See? It's THIS SHIT right here
[17:14] Yuko: That's what I'm talking about
[17:14] Yuko: I'm done. I'm honestly and truly done
[17:14] Yuko: Leave me alone. Don't message or speak to me again
[17:14] Yuko: cause we're just going in circles at this point
[17:14] e: huh.
[17:15] Yuko: I'm sick of this finger pointing blame shit
[17:15] Yuko: fuck you.
[17:15] Yuko: Good bye
[17:15] e: haha.
Friday, October 17, 2008 17:15:13
[17:15] e: cute. ya know...ironically...
[17:15] e: ...you started this topic of conversation. ^^;; but, I digress.
[17:15] e: cheers! :3 have a good'un.
Basically, he was reminding me that it was all my fault and acting like I owe them something for all the abuse I took AFTER what happened. Like I hadn't apologized. Like I hadn't admitted that I was wrong. Like I was the ONLY PERSON at fault.
Let's get one thing straight. I'm not the only one who was wrong in this situation. In fact, the only people not wrong were Master and Lovie. HE was wrong because of the way he was treating me before (sleeping with Jessica behind my back, acting like any regret he has about anything is my fault because I'm obviously to blame for everything), he was wrong for lying to me and being a hypocrite because he drove to Jekyll Island to fuck a dude while we were still together and I FORGAVE HIM FOR IT.
I know she had good intentions, but when I said BUTT OUT she continuously pressed the issue, going behind my back to start conversations I wasn't ready to have. She did her best to meddle exactly where I told her not to. I told her I had reasons for everything I did, and figured I could trust her to use her judgment and BE A FRIEND and not press the issue, but she did anyway. Not only that, but afterwards she ASKED HIM OUT. How's that for a friend? Make sure you do everything in your power to fuck with my relationship when I tell you not to, then ask my ex out? This after continuously telling me how much you like him and how lucky I am to have him? Major trust issue.
So to summarize: He's a manipulative asshole that not only intentionally tried to make me feel like shit, but he also fucked with my emotions and told me he forgave me/loved me and wanted to make things better just so he could sleep with me afterward. Oh, yeah. When I wouldn't sleep with him he kicked me out of his apartment, claiming he was "confused" because I said I loved him but wouldn't prove it.
She meddled where she shouldn't have even after I said thanks but no thanks, pressed issues I told her I wasn't ready to deal with yet, sat through the breakup taking his side the entire time (all while blaming me entirely) . After the breakup not only did she constantly talk about how great her love life was with her new boyfriend, but asked my ex out before new boyfriend came into the picture.
So yeah, that conversation made me unbelievably angry and even though I should have kept that conversation to myself, I was inebriated but I don't take back a word of it. I know he only did it to hurt and piss me off and I can't figure out for the life of me why he won't just grow the fuck up and leave me alone but I seem to have that problem with people a lot. But there you have it. My side of the story. If you're confused, well...sorry.
In essence, somehow Nightwind got unblocked. I blame Meebo cause I would NEVER unblock him on purpose. He started up this conversation:
[16:59] e: I just find it interesting that you once professed to love me, and were once inseparable to a good friend of mine, and now as time has progressed, neither of us hears from you anymore.
[17:00] Yuko: Hrm, have you forgotten what led up to this?
[17:01] e: eh, yes and no. It's not like you were innocent by any means.
[17:04] Yuko: I wasn't, but the way it went down doesn't absolve either of you either
[17:04] Yuko: and the way you treated me after
[17:05] E: ah, yes, my treatment after the fallout. Honestly, you were the catalyst, and it was based off your actions that I treated you the way I did.
[17:05] Yuko: Honestly? At this point it doesn't matter
[17:05] Yuko: What's done is done.
[17:06] e: yeah. like I said, I just find it interesting.
[17:06] Yuko: how so?
[17:08] e: for a majority of the reasons I previously stated. To say you love someone so much, to say someone is close enough to you to be your sister, and then to totally abandon both parties, not to mention to do what you did to them, kinda... how do I say. It's hypocritical, at the least. But, I'm saying this from the most objective standpoint that I can.
[17:09] Yuko: I didn't abandon you, I walked away from what was hurting me the most in the situation
[17:09] Yuko: You don't keep walking into a dagger after it stabs you
[17:10] e: See... after all this time, you still point to others as the catalyst for our breakup. It's not me, or Jessica, or even your old master that caused it - it was you.
[17:10] Yuko: I never said that
[17:10] e: it's in how you act.
[17:10] Yuko: I never said that it was any of you
[17:10] e: and in how you present your argument.
[17:10] Yuko: No, it's not. That's how you take it
[17:11] e: "you don't keep walking into a dagger..." right after you talk about me. How else is that statement to be inferred?
[17:12] Yuko: That even AFTER the break up you guys kept putting me down and blaming me and hurting me further when you really didn't have to. You kept doing things to hurt me even after I gave you a chance
[17:12] Yuko: So I walked away
[17:13] e: Oh, the fallout period? Yeah. You refused to recognize any fault of your own, you pinned the blame on other parties, you tried to play the victim and entice sympathy from us, and you still refused to follow the criteria I had originally set up.
[17:14] Yuko: See? It's THIS SHIT right here
[17:14] Yuko: That's what I'm talking about
[17:14] Yuko: I'm done. I'm honestly and truly done
[17:14] Yuko: Leave me alone. Don't message or speak to me again
[17:14] Yuko: cause we're just going in circles at this point
[17:14] e: huh.
[17:15] Yuko: I'm sick of this finger pointing blame shit
[17:15] Yuko: fuck you.
[17:15] Yuko: Good bye
[17:15] e: haha.
Friday, October 17, 2008 17:15:13
[17:15] e: cute. ya know...ironically...
[17:15] e: ...you started this topic of conversation. ^^;; but, I digress.
[17:15] e: cheers! :3 have a good'un.
Basically, he was reminding me that it was all my fault and acting like I owe them something for all the abuse I took AFTER what happened. Like I hadn't apologized. Like I hadn't admitted that I was wrong. Like I was the ONLY PERSON at fault.
Let's get one thing straight. I'm not the only one who was wrong in this situation. In fact, the only people not wrong were Master and Lovie. HE was wrong because of the way he was treating me before (sleeping with Jessica behind my back, acting like any regret he has about anything is my fault because I'm obviously to blame for everything), he was wrong for lying to me and being a hypocrite because he drove to Jekyll Island to fuck a dude while we were still together and I FORGAVE HIM FOR IT.
I know she had good intentions, but when I said BUTT OUT she continuously pressed the issue, going behind my back to start conversations I wasn't ready to have. She did her best to meddle exactly where I told her not to. I told her I had reasons for everything I did, and figured I could trust her to use her judgment and BE A FRIEND and not press the issue, but she did anyway. Not only that, but afterwards she ASKED HIM OUT. How's that for a friend? Make sure you do everything in your power to fuck with my relationship when I tell you not to, then ask my ex out? This after continuously telling me how much you like him and how lucky I am to have him? Major trust issue.
So to summarize: He's a manipulative asshole that not only intentionally tried to make me feel like shit, but he also fucked with my emotions and told me he forgave me/loved me and wanted to make things better just so he could sleep with me afterward. Oh, yeah. When I wouldn't sleep with him he kicked me out of his apartment, claiming he was "confused" because I said I loved him but wouldn't prove it.
She meddled where she shouldn't have even after I said thanks but no thanks, pressed issues I told her I wasn't ready to deal with yet, sat through the breakup taking his side the entire time (all while blaming me entirely) . After the breakup not only did she constantly talk about how great her love life was with her new boyfriend, but asked my ex out before new boyfriend came into the picture.
So yeah, that conversation made me unbelievably angry and even though I should have kept that conversation to myself, I was inebriated but I don't take back a word of it. I know he only did it to hurt and piss me off and I can't figure out for the life of me why he won't just grow the fuck up and leave me alone but I seem to have that problem with people a lot. But there you have it. My side of the story. If you're confused, well...sorry.