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I can understand now, why he had such high hurdles for me to jump over, then.
I'm starting to set them up myself, now. I feel like if I didn't, I'd truly not care. And that I'd be doing myself (and him) an injustice. Why would he suffer if I didn't put them up..? Because one day I could find someone able to do as much or more, with much less effort, and I'd become stupidly blind and just walk away from someone who was willing to do so much for me. ... I, true to heart, would not want to do that to someone who's tried so hard for me :(
I hate that you can't have love without pangs of petty jealousy. I feel awful.
I'm starting to set them up myself, now. I feel like if I didn't, I'd truly not care. And that I'd be doing myself (and him) an injustice. Why would he suffer if I didn't put them up..? Because one day I could find someone able to do as much or more, with much less effort, and I'd become stupidly blind and just walk away from someone who was willing to do so much for me. ... I, true to heart, would not want to do that to someone who's tried so hard for me :(
I hate that you can't have love without pangs of petty jealousy. I feel awful.