I sort of just want to shy away from life for a while.

Find a nice cozy little nook where I can watch everything without feeling trapped in my head, and just... experience without having to partake. Mostly because partaking makes me nervous.

I'm not depressed but I wonder what would happen if I just wasn't around anymore. I feel like.. if I were to, ( Read more... )

So I'm sorta of cleaning up  my room right now. Going through some belongings, finding things. Rearranging stuff. It's kind of a trip.
I haven't written in a while and wanted to, mostly for self-reflection. I can't tell how well I'm doing; I feel like I've sort of just closed my eyes while walking along the path I was taking, and I'm not sure if I'm ( Read more... )

So I thought, since I can't sleep, why not document how this 2008's Christmas is turning out. I'm about half-way through.. and.. alone. Again. The real disappointment in this is that it's usually spent with family, but I suppose it was like that last year too.  I don't know; I don't entirely mind. Just how things play out; I can look back on this ( Read more... )

School's almost up. I definitely feel the crunch with tomorrow being the very last day there is of classes.  I have a couple assignments I probably won't be handing in but on a personal level I'm really proud of all that I've done :) I really feel accomplished.  A Mr. Que' has been trying to recruit me to spearhead the Indigenous Students' ( Read more... )

I consider myself fairly active in optimizing my education.  I'll take and consider words from anyone, and see if I can't find a place for them somewhere in my understanding of things.

I also consider myself fairly established in terms of self-identity because of this. I've considered what I am as a First Nations person and my role as that in my ( Read more... )

I haven't gone to bed yet out of shitty habit.

... Even if I did, I don't think I could get over the fact that I can hear my upstairs neighbour snoring. He has a wife and three kids, one of which is a baby. I feel bad for his family.

My aunty died today.

I was so scared when my mom got this phone call; I can usually tell who she's talking to by listening to her voice. But she picked up the phone without checking the ID and had the generic "Hello?" that she has for a stranger. After a pause, she still hadn't said anything so I didn't know who it was; she sort of shrunk in her ( Read more... )

It's said that a society's mindset starts in the post-secondary institutions; the universities and places of academia. (Specifically, I remember my Psych 101 prof saying this; her name is Jaime Williams.) This sounds a little bit ridiculous when you meet some people who attend university but altogether I think it true.  This is not to say that the ( Read more... )

So Yuko got a boyfriend and while I'm immensely happy for her, I miss not having that constant connection. Oh well, I suppose; it's natural that those things come and go, na?  He's really nice and friendly, kinda quirky but I suppose that makes him all the more appealing.

I went and had Thanksgiving dinner yesterday; food was good, time was all ( Read more... )

I made it into classes; sculpture, music and English. So far, so good on the english front. So far I have a ninety in that class. Music is scaring me a little bit; too much like learning Greek or .. yeah. And Sculpture? It's my most important but because of that I'm hesitant as hell to really do anything :\

I've been researching Children of God aka ( Read more... )