Happier With You (Happy for You part 3)
Junhyung’s plan was easier thought if than put into action. For one thing, whenever the rapper tried approaching him, the doe eyed boy would just walk away from him. It was frustrating the younger and he had no choice but to ask help from their dear vocal which is a lot harder than what it seemed.
“ Yoseob ah . . .” Junhyung called out while they were taking a break from practice.
The brunette turned to him. “ Why?”
“Can I ask you something, Seobie?”
“Go ahead,hyung.”
Junhyung pondered if he really should ask. He almost decided no but again, no one else could help him. “ Is Hyunseung hyung mad at me?”
Yoseob choked on an invisible lump. “W-what made you say that?”
“ Just answer the question.”
Yoseob bit his lower lip. “Uh, I’m not really in the position to say anything.”
“Just answer the question. Is that so hard?”
“Hyunseung hyung would get mad at me if I say anything. Why don’t you ask him yourself?”
Junhyung opened his mouth and closed it again. How could he say that he was afraid that the older would just walk away from him. “Hyung
might not say anything.”
Yoseob sighed. “Why don’t you just think back yourself? Did you do anything bad or mean to him?”
“Of course not! Why would I?” junhyung shook his head.
Yoseob stood up and got ready for practice again. “Yong Junhyung, do you remember when Hyunseung hyung slep over the Big Bang’s
dorms? You said that you saw him the previous night then the next morning, you didn’t know where he was? Did you have an argument with
him before he left? Maybe it’s that.”
Junhyung thought back at it. “Yoseob, at least tell me if he is mad at me.”
The younger smiled brightly. “Hyung could never get mad at you.”
The last statement stayed stuck in the rapper’s mind for the whole day. Why would Yoseob say that? Hyunseung wasn’t the most tempermental member; no, that was 2Jun’s territory but he knew that their dancer also got mad like any other person. It was puzzling him all the while that he didn’t notice that he bumped into someone.
“Jun, watch where you’re going.” The said person muttered.
Joker’s head snapped up and stared at the older. “ Uh, sorry,hyung.”
“Yeah, whatever. Just don’t do it again. Doojoon hyung is in a pretty bad mood so if you do that to him. . .” Hyunseung didn’t need to say the
rest.
Junhyung laughed at the simple remark. Hyunseung finally talked to him! It brought him greater joy than any joke could. “Yeah, well, if he wasn’t bossing Seob around, he wouldn’t get yelled at.”
Hyunseung smirked and shook his head. “That wasn’t the only reason Seobie yelled at him.”
“Huh? What do you mean?” Junhyung quirked an eyebrow.
The older leaned in near the rapper’s ear as if he was going to whisper something. “You ought to keep up, Jun. You still don’t know a lot.”
Junhyung was stunned into a statue after that. He was pretty sure that his whole face was red with embarrassment and a whole new hot feeling. Hyunseung saw the younger’s reaction and smirked again. He tapped the rapper’s cheek lightly then sashayed away, leaving Junhyung mulling over what he just said.
After that incident, Junhyung tried observing the members more closely than before. After practice, Kikwang and Dongwoon would usually be the first ones to enter the dorm. The two of them would head to the kitchen to grab some snacks then go to their room. They would disappear there for hours and when they do appear, they had those silly grins on their face. Junhyung iddly wondered why. The next would be their leader and their vocal. He noted with a small chuckle that the two of them were always bickering about something with Yoseob usually winning. It was either he really made more sense or his aegyo just won over the leader’s demeanor. They would argue about any small thing like when the leader wanted to rest, Yoseob would just choose that time to be annoyingly energetic and make the leader do things for him. The rapper already had a sense of what was happening with them but he still had to conclude his observations. The last one on the list was the resident 4D prince. Hyunseung was pretty much the only one that hasn’t changed. Since the others are usually busy with themselves, their dancer was more or less alone all the time unless Yoseob would suddenly cuddle up to him or Kikwang would just casually lean on him. But one thing did change: Hyunseung was always on the phone. Junhyung didn’t have the courage to ask who he was talking to but he didn’t have to; he accidentally overheard them.
“Hyunseung hyung, he’s calling.” Yoseob handed the older’s phone to the owner.
“Really, Seob? Are you done playing with your game?” Hyunseung asked thoughtfully.
Yoseob laughed and shook his head. “He’s more important so here you go.”
Hyunseung laughed then answered the call. “I wonder who’s calling me.”
The other person replied and Hyunseung laughed again.
“Stop being so childish, hyung. You know that you’re not cute.”
Junhyung knew who it was. There wasn’t anybody else that Hyunseung would call as hyung.
“Neh, neh. Jiyong hyung, are you really coming over tomorrow?” the 4D boy nodded his head. “Sure, Doojoon hyung said that it was alright.”
Yoseob suddenly poked Junhyung’s cheek. “Hey there, cheeky green eyed monster.”
Junhyung swatted his hand and glared at him. “Shut up, Seob.”
“You know G Dragon hyung is coming tomorrow.”
“Yeah, I just heard.”
Yoseob cocked his head to the side. “We told everyone before practice. How come you didn’t hear it?”
Junhyung thought back at the start of the day. The start of the practice is usually the time that Hyunseung would really get lost in his 4D world while getting ready for the practice itself. Maybe he was watching him too intently so he didn’t hear. “It must have passed me.”
“Well, whatever. So G Dragon hyung will be here tomorrow, what are you going to do about it?” yoseob smiled mischievously.
“What do you want me to do about it? Do you want me to lock him up somewhere?” As Junhyung said it, he could actually picture himself
doing it then he caught himself. That was a bad idea, Yong Junhyung.
Yoseob seemed to follow his train of thought and clicked his tongue. “Don’t you dare do that. Hyunseung hyung would probably get mad at
you.”
“Of course he would.” Junhyung rolled his eyes.
“Don’t be such a jealous pot. G Dragon hyung is like a sunbae brother to hyung. If Heechul hyung and you were in the same group and you
were kicked out, wouldn’t you take every chance to be with him? You’d be very happy every time he commended on your performance, right?
It’s the same thing with them so don’t get jealous.” Yoseob said seriously then walked off.
By the time that Hyunseung was done with his phone call which took a grand total of 4 hours, Junhyung had already taken a shower while the other members stalked off somewhere. The rapper was watching some random show on TV and he was almost asleep when Hyunseung sat beside him.
“You’re finally done.” Junhyung muttered.
Hyunseung beamed at him. “Jiyong hyung and I are getting closer so I’m happy about it.”
The younger almost said something bad until he caught himself. He had no right to be jealous so why not change tactics? “Did G Dragon
ssi call you afterward your Mnet performance? You know when we were promoting ‘Story of my Life’.”
Hyunseung shook his head. “Jiyong hyung and I talked alot backstage but after that, he got busy again preparing for his album with
Seunghyun hyung.”
“Seunghyun hyung?”
“TOP hyung. Seunghyun is his real name.”
Junhyung nodded. “I see. Wait, isn’t there another Seunghyun that’s your dongsaeng?”
“Which do you mean? Seunghyun as in Seungri or FTI’s Seunghyun?”
“Are you close to the both of them?”
The dancer took his time in answering. “Let’s see. Seungri and I didn’t get along as well in the past unlike the other members. Since he
was cheeky and very playful, my stubborness would always clash with that. But now, Seungri and I are okay. And about Song Seunghyun . . .
what can I say? I love his groundless confidence. When I’m depressed, I sometimes head down to their dorm and watch him dance Ring
Ding Dong and I’ll feel better!”
The rapper shook his head. “You seem very fond of them.” He remarked a little sarcastically,
“Of course! Dongsaengs are meant to be cute and relaxing.”
“Ah.” Junhyung replied. He was sort of hurt. He already knew that he wasn’t cute; he hated doing aegyo because that was already Yoseob’s
turf. And relaxing? Forget it. No one would be able to relax once he started nagging. He mentally sighed and kicked himself for not being an
adorable dongsaeng.
Hyunseung watched in silence as Junhyung continued to think. He interpreted it as the younger being sleepy so he leaned Junhyung’s head against his own shoulder. He’s glad that Junhyung didn’t even look up so he wouldn’t see his blushing face. He knew that he might have been taking advantage of the situation but there was no need for the other to know that. Meanwhile, Junhyung was mentally dancing with happiness. Hyunseung made him lean to him! He couldn’t raise his eyes because of the sparkling glint it now contained. Soon, the two of them fell asleep since they were very comfortable in that position and they even cuddled closer in their sleep.
A slight tap on Hyunseung’s cheek woke him up. “M-mwo?”
Yoseob smiled at him. “Hyung, it’s time to eat dinner. You and Junnie hyung should wake up.”
“Thanks, Seob. You go on ahead.” Hyunseung smiled sweetly then he turned to the man leaning on him. “Jun? Hey, Jun. Wake up.”
The rapper slowly opened his eyes. “Hyung? What’s up?”
“Wake up. We have to eat dinner.”
“I don’t want to. Can’t I just stay here with you?”
“Jun.”
The rapper sighed and hugged Hyunseung. “I want to stay with you like this. I’m not hungry anyway.”
Hyunseung blushed. “O-okay then.”
Doojoon was about to call on them again when he saw that the two was now hugging. He smiled at them then returned to the table. He
didn’t have to interfere anymore. It seemed that Junhyung was finally learning the tactics of the game.
“Hyunseung hyung?”
“Yes, Jun?”
“Nothing.” Junhyung grinned.
“Okay.”
Another minute.
“Hyunseung ah.”
“Neh?”
“I didn’t call you.”
Hyunseung just shook his head.
“Hyunseung hyung.”
No reply,
“Hyunseung hyung.”
No reply.
“Yah, hyung!”
“Are you really going to say something?”
“No.”
“Then don’t call my name.”
“I have something to ask.”
“What is it?”
“What’s up with Kwang and Woon? They’re always together. Same thing goes for Doo hyung and Seobie.”
Hyunseung laughed. “Isn’t it obvious?”
“Nope, that’s why I’m asking.”
Hyunseung crossed his fingers. “They’re together.”
“Mwo?! Together as in together together?!” Junhyung exclaimed.
“Yeah. See how stupid you are? You don’t even know that.”
“Wow. How the heck did I miss that one?”
“If this is any consolation, Seobie and Doojoon hyung aren’t together yet. Doo hyung still hasn’t confessed so yeah.”
“It’s not. Wait, Seob confessed first? I never thought he could do that . . .”
“Yoseob isn’t as innocent as he seems.”
“What do you mean?”
“Nothing.” Hyunseung stood up. “I’m gonna take a shower then sleep, okay? You should probably take some time to digest what I just said
so I’ll leave you alone.”
Junhyung wanted to pull him back but instead he just watched the older with a smile. If everyone else is a couple, well almost, who’s to say that he and Seung had no chance of being together? There’s only one thing that could stand in the way and he has to face the ‘thing’ tomorrow. The thing that goes by the name of Kwon Jiyong.
“Good morning!” G Dragon greeted enthusiastically the next day. Yoseob and Hyunseung opened the door for him and bowed down.
“Morning.” The two said simultaneously.
“Are the others still asleep?” the Big Bang leader asked as he walked in the dorm.
Yoseob shook his head. “They’re in the kitchen, trying to cook something for you.”
“Wow. You didn’t have to go to the trouble. I could anything you have here.”
Hyunseung laughed. “Jiyong hyung is such a pig anyway.”
G Dragon slightly whacked his head and smirked. “At least I’m not 4D, babo.”
Yoseob expected Hyunseung to at least frown but his hyung just smiled and playfully hit Jiyong’s arm. As they continued to head to the kitchen, Jiyong and Hyunseung continued to talk while trying to include the vocal. The youngest replied when he could but his eyes were more focused. He saw that Jiyong’s arms automatically made their way to his hyung’s waist. Were they together? Maybe he shouldn’t jump to conclusions.
“Oh, G Dragon ssi, you’re here.” Doojoon said.
The rest of the kitchen crew looked up and stopped what they were doing and looked at thei visitor. They all noticed the hands on Hyunseung’s waist and they couldn’t stop raising an eyebrow. Hyunseung saw the change of emotion on their face and followed their line of vision. Were they surprised that Jiyong was holding his waist? He mentally laughed. How could they look like that? It was Jiyong for God’s sake.
Junhyung on the other hand was more or less burning holes in those arms. He tried to remember all the things that Yoseob had said to him but they got blurred by those pair of hands. It was Jiyong for fuck’s sake. How could he not feel jealous?
“Is there something you want to say Junhyung ssi?” G dragon suddenly asked. He was smirking slightly, enjoying the reaction from the younger.
The other rapper shook his head and stood up. “I think I need some air. I’m done with my share anyway.” Then he stood up and headed out of the kitchen.
Hyunseung frowned then turned to Yoseob. “Seobie ah. . .”
“Yes, hyung?” Yoseob asked innocently.
Hyunseung gave him the what-did-you-d-now look.
The vocal raised his hands and pouted. “I didn’t do anything to him!”
“Then, what’s wrong with him?”
Jiyong’s eyes lit up and he pulled away from Hyunseung. “I’ll go see what’s up. You look like you guys are still preparing.” Then he walked
off too.
Doojoon nervously scratched the back of his neck. “I have a bad feeling about this.”
Junhyung was leaning on the railings of the porch with his eyes closed when G Dragon saw him. The younger could feel someone’s presence and opened his eyes. He groaned out loud when he saw who it was. Big Bang’s leader didn’t comment on the groan and just went to stand beside the younger. Neither of them spoke for a while until Jiyong finally couldn’t handle the silence.
“Hyunseung is really pretty, isn’t he?” he commented casually.
Junhyung gave him a sideway glance and shrugged. “I guess. But you know, he doesn’t really like being called pretty.”
“Yeah, I know that. He hates being called anything remotely feminine.” Jiyong’s tone implied that he knew a lot about Hyunseung more than
Junhyung did.
“I know that too.”
Jiyong laughed. “You don’t have to get defensive. You’re seung’s best friend in Beast, right?”
‘In Beast.’ Junhyung mentally scoffed. “Well, yeah, I guess. He’s become pretty close to Seob also, why?”
“Do you know who he likes?”
Junhyung choked on nothing and started coughing. “Excuse me?”
G Dragon raised an eyebrow. “I asked if he liked someone.”
“Eh, well, I don’t know.” Junhyung scratched his head. Why was G Dragon asking this?
“How can you not know? I thought you were his best friend.”
“He’s not much into telling things like that anyway.”
Jiyong stared at him then returned his gaze to the nothingness in front of them. “You know if someone likes Hyunseung, he should know.
They’ll never know whether they had the chance with him. Who knows, someone might even steal that babo away from them.”
Junhyung listened carefully to what the other rapper was saying. There was no way that this was just a random topic. “Hyung, why are you telling me this?”
“Why do you think?” Jiyong smiled sadly at him. “I’ve been where you are now, Junhyung so trust me. Silence isn’t always the answer.” He
patted the younger’s back before heading back inside.
Junhyung wanted to call out the other back but his words got lost somewhere. Jiyong’s words were the things on top of his mind right now and he couldn’t shake off the feeling that the rapper knew just how he felt. How could he have known? Junhyung had only found out recently and he was pretty sure that Hyunseung hasn’t noticed yet. Did Yoseob tell him? No, the younger wouldn’t do that on his own. So how the heck did G Dragon find out his secret?
“Thanks a lot for coming over, Jiyong hyung. It’s sort of a relief being here with my members too.” Hyunseung grinned brightly at his hyung.
G Dragon ruffled his hair and smiled back. “Call me anytime you want. I see that everyone here really treats you like a real princess so I
don’t have to worry about anything.”
The younger hit him on the arm and pushed him out of the door. ‘get your ass out of here.”
Doojoon laughed when G Dragon already left. “I like him a lot, Seung. I can see why you’re so attached with him.”
“yeah, hyung. He was really playful with you yet caring also.” Dongwoon added.
Yoseob nodded his head happily. “He really loves you, hyung.”
Hyunseung smiled at all of them then went to sit on the couch beside Junhyung. “Yeah, hyung really loves me but I wish he’d love himself
also. It’s hard to take care of someone like that. He’s such a workaholic and a perfectionist.”
“So that’s where you got it.” Junhyung absentmindedly mumbled.
Hyunseung giggled and nodded. “I got some of my habits from hyung. We’re close that way.”
The next few days were normal for Beast. Going to different schedules then coming home at the dead of the night, no one was strong enough to hold a proper conversation so even if Junhyung wanted to talk-to confess-to Hyunseung so bad, he can’t. His hyung is more tired than any of them because for some reason their manager would always have something for the dancer to do and it upsets every member. Hyunseung also thanks them for their worry but accepts the schedule anyway.
It’s one of those rare days that Junhyung is the first to get home and it’s even afternoon early. Like the responsible umma he is, he decides to do the chores that everyone has more or less neglected because of the schedule. After all that, he took a quick shower then went to lie down in the couch, trying to sleep. He hasn’t even fallen that deep yet when he felt someone cramping him into the small couch.
“Yah. Can’t you see me? Only one person can lie down.” Junhyung said annoyed.
Hyunseung peeked at him from wet lashes. ‘Sorry. I’ll go.”
Jun realized how tight Hyunseung is holding him and quickly pulled the older closer to him. “Hey, tell me what’s wrong.”
Hyunseung squirms within his grasp like he’s trying to avoid the topic but Junhyung won’t let him go. “Aish. Okay, I’ll say it. Jiyong hyung is
together with Seunghyun hyung now.”
The younger undeniably froze. ‘So Hyunseung really had feelings for Jiyong ssi.’ He thought miserably.
“Tell me, Junhyung ah. Am I ugly? How come I’m the only one who doesn’t have anybody? And Jiyong hyung promised me he’ll wait until I
find somebody also. Well, I did give him my go sign since I knew he loved Seunghyun hyung for so long now. I’m happy for them really but I
can’t help but feel alone. I mean everyone has somebody. Doojoon hyung has Seobie while Kwang and Dongwoon are together. And you. .
.” Hyunseung looked up to Junhyung as a tear fell down his cheek. “You have Hara.”
Junhyung felt something take over him so sudden; it caught him off guard too. He was kissing Hyunseung the next second: kissing all those tears away. At first the older didn’t respond, he was too shock. But that soon melted away as the passion took hold of them both. Junhyung pulled them upright while placing his hyung on his lap. Hyunseung grabbed his hair, wanting to make the kiss deeper also. The rapper swore his heart stopped beating when his hyung moaned sweetly. He started trailing down kisses on his hyung’s neck which apparently made Hyunseung very happy if his whimpers were to say anything. His hands were already making their way under the older’s shirt when he felt Hyunseung stiffen.
“J-Jun. . .” Hyunseung panted. His eyes were teary and apologetic.
“What’s wrong?” Junhyung asked.
“This. This is wrong. Fuck, I’m sorry. I’ll just act like this didn’t happen. I’m sorry.” Hyunseung quickly stood up and ran to their bedroom.
Junhyung followed him and knocked gently. “Hyunseung hyung, open up.”
“No.”
“Jang Hyunseung, this is not the time for stubbornness.”
“Yong Junhyung, this is not the time for your stubbornness also.”
Junhyung sighed. “I’m going to count to three. If the door isn’t open by then, I’ll break it down.”
“Go ahead. Doojoon hyung would kill you.”
“I don’t care.”
Hyunseung didn’t answer for a moment then Junhyung heard the soft sound of footsteps approaching the door. “Why would you even do
that, Jun?”
“I don’t want to talk to a door. Open up then I’ll answer.” Junhyung leaned his head against the door.
“I can’t show my face right now. I’m too embarrassed.” Hyunseung softly replied.
“I’m in love with you.” Junhyung said honestly. “This is so not how I planned to confess to you. Damn you, you’re ruining my plans.”
Hyunseung laughed. “You told me you love me then curse me? You are so weird, Jun. “
“Look who’s talking. Now, open the door.”
Hyunseung slowly opened the door and the sight just made Jun’s heart beat faster. His hyung was blushing and his eyes were riveted to
the ground.
“A-are you really in love with me, Jun?”Hyunseung asked while not looking up.
Junhyung entered the room and leaned his forehead against his hyung’s. “Yes. I love you.”
“If you’re saying this just to make me feel better, don’t.”
“Babo, I was really planning on confessing to you today. You just ruined my surprise.”
“Chinja? Were you really going to confess to me?” Hyunseung’s voice was filled with innocent happiness.
Junhyung chuckled and pushed the older inside the room. “Do you want to know how I planned to do it?”
The doe eyed boy nodded with his eyes glazing.
“I planned on getting you alone today. I thought it was going to be hard because of Yoseob but here we are.” Junhyung motioned around the empty room. “Then, I would ask you how your day was and you would sulk because it was too tiring and lean your head against my shoulder. I’ll tease you on how you’re complaining too much then you’d hit me, not that it hurt. You’d walk away from me with a cute pout on your face then I’ll hug you from the back while apologizing.”
Hyunseung laughed. “You had every single detail planned, haven’t you?”
“Don’t interrupt me. I also prepared what I was going to say.” Junhyung frowned.
‘So, what were you going to say?”
“Jang Hyunseung, I was just teasing you because you looked too adorable when I do that. You should know that you pouting and frowning are different things. When you frown, I don’t like it because it means that you’re upset and I don’t want to see you sad or anything like that. You want to know why?” he looked at Hyunseung straight in the eye. “You’re my everything, Hyunnie. I’m sorry it took me a while to figure it out.”
“And I suppose you have my answer in mind also?” Hyunseung asked playfully while wrapping his arms around the younger’s neck.
Jun couldn’t help but grin goofily and wrapped his arms around Hyunseung’s waist. “Well, yeah but I’d like to really hear it from you.”
“What about Hara ssi?” Hyunseung’s face fell a little.
“She doesn’t have anything to do with me anymore. Besides, I know I’ll be happier with you.”
“really now? What if I said no?”
“Our kiss before begs to differ. You even nearly moaned out my name.”
Hyunseung smirked and leaned his face closer, closer.” Jun.”
Junhyung leaned forward, waiting for the kiss. When he got nothing, he saw an amused face.
“Look who’s getting all needy. If you want any, you better catch me, honey.” Hyunseung winked before running off.
Junhyung blinked then smirked. It was a game Hyunseung want, it’s a game he’ll get.
“ Yoseob ah . . .” Junhyung called out while they were taking a break from practice.
The brunette turned to him. “ Why?”
“Can I ask you something, Seobie?”
“Go ahead,hyung.”
Junhyung pondered if he really should ask. He almost decided no but again, no one else could help him. “ Is Hyunseung hyung mad at me?”
Yoseob choked on an invisible lump. “W-what made you say that?”
“ Just answer the question.”
Yoseob bit his lower lip. “Uh, I’m not really in the position to say anything.”
“Just answer the question. Is that so hard?”
“Hyunseung hyung would get mad at me if I say anything. Why don’t you ask him yourself?”
Junhyung opened his mouth and closed it again. How could he say that he was afraid that the older would just walk away from him. “Hyung
might not say anything.”
Yoseob sighed. “Why don’t you just think back yourself? Did you do anything bad or mean to him?”
“Of course not! Why would I?” junhyung shook his head.
Yoseob stood up and got ready for practice again. “Yong Junhyung, do you remember when Hyunseung hyung slep over the Big Bang’s
dorms? You said that you saw him the previous night then the next morning, you didn’t know where he was? Did you have an argument with
him before he left? Maybe it’s that.”
Junhyung thought back at it. “Yoseob, at least tell me if he is mad at me.”
The younger smiled brightly. “Hyung could never get mad at you.”
The last statement stayed stuck in the rapper’s mind for the whole day. Why would Yoseob say that? Hyunseung wasn’t the most tempermental member; no, that was 2Jun’s territory but he knew that their dancer also got mad like any other person. It was puzzling him all the while that he didn’t notice that he bumped into someone.
“Jun, watch where you’re going.” The said person muttered.
Joker’s head snapped up and stared at the older. “ Uh, sorry,hyung.”
“Yeah, whatever. Just don’t do it again. Doojoon hyung is in a pretty bad mood so if you do that to him. . .” Hyunseung didn’t need to say the
rest.
Junhyung laughed at the simple remark. Hyunseung finally talked to him! It brought him greater joy than any joke could. “Yeah, well, if he wasn’t bossing Seob around, he wouldn’t get yelled at.”
Hyunseung smirked and shook his head. “That wasn’t the only reason Seobie yelled at him.”
“Huh? What do you mean?” Junhyung quirked an eyebrow.
The older leaned in near the rapper’s ear as if he was going to whisper something. “You ought to keep up, Jun. You still don’t know a lot.”
Junhyung was stunned into a statue after that. He was pretty sure that his whole face was red with embarrassment and a whole new hot feeling. Hyunseung saw the younger’s reaction and smirked again. He tapped the rapper’s cheek lightly then sashayed away, leaving Junhyung mulling over what he just said.
After that incident, Junhyung tried observing the members more closely than before. After practice, Kikwang and Dongwoon would usually be the first ones to enter the dorm. The two of them would head to the kitchen to grab some snacks then go to their room. They would disappear there for hours and when they do appear, they had those silly grins on their face. Junhyung iddly wondered why. The next would be their leader and their vocal. He noted with a small chuckle that the two of them were always bickering about something with Yoseob usually winning. It was either he really made more sense or his aegyo just won over the leader’s demeanor. They would argue about any small thing like when the leader wanted to rest, Yoseob would just choose that time to be annoyingly energetic and make the leader do things for him. The rapper already had a sense of what was happening with them but he still had to conclude his observations. The last one on the list was the resident 4D prince. Hyunseung was pretty much the only one that hasn’t changed. Since the others are usually busy with themselves, their dancer was more or less alone all the time unless Yoseob would suddenly cuddle up to him or Kikwang would just casually lean on him. But one thing did change: Hyunseung was always on the phone. Junhyung didn’t have the courage to ask who he was talking to but he didn’t have to; he accidentally overheard them.
“Hyunseung hyung, he’s calling.” Yoseob handed the older’s phone to the owner.
“Really, Seob? Are you done playing with your game?” Hyunseung asked thoughtfully.
Yoseob laughed and shook his head. “He’s more important so here you go.”
Hyunseung laughed then answered the call. “I wonder who’s calling me.”
The other person replied and Hyunseung laughed again.
“Stop being so childish, hyung. You know that you’re not cute.”
Junhyung knew who it was. There wasn’t anybody else that Hyunseung would call as hyung.
“Neh, neh. Jiyong hyung, are you really coming over tomorrow?” the 4D boy nodded his head. “Sure, Doojoon hyung said that it was alright.”
Yoseob suddenly poked Junhyung’s cheek. “Hey there, cheeky green eyed monster.”
Junhyung swatted his hand and glared at him. “Shut up, Seob.”
“You know G Dragon hyung is coming tomorrow.”
“Yeah, I just heard.”
Yoseob cocked his head to the side. “We told everyone before practice. How come you didn’t hear it?”
Junhyung thought back at the start of the day. The start of the practice is usually the time that Hyunseung would really get lost in his 4D world while getting ready for the practice itself. Maybe he was watching him too intently so he didn’t hear. “It must have passed me.”
“Well, whatever. So G Dragon hyung will be here tomorrow, what are you going to do about it?” yoseob smiled mischievously.
“What do you want me to do about it? Do you want me to lock him up somewhere?” As Junhyung said it, he could actually picture himself
doing it then he caught himself. That was a bad idea, Yong Junhyung.
Yoseob seemed to follow his train of thought and clicked his tongue. “Don’t you dare do that. Hyunseung hyung would probably get mad at
you.”
“Of course he would.” Junhyung rolled his eyes.
“Don’t be such a jealous pot. G Dragon hyung is like a sunbae brother to hyung. If Heechul hyung and you were in the same group and you
were kicked out, wouldn’t you take every chance to be with him? You’d be very happy every time he commended on your performance, right?
It’s the same thing with them so don’t get jealous.” Yoseob said seriously then walked off.
By the time that Hyunseung was done with his phone call which took a grand total of 4 hours, Junhyung had already taken a shower while the other members stalked off somewhere. The rapper was watching some random show on TV and he was almost asleep when Hyunseung sat beside him.
“You’re finally done.” Junhyung muttered.
Hyunseung beamed at him. “Jiyong hyung and I are getting closer so I’m happy about it.”
The younger almost said something bad until he caught himself. He had no right to be jealous so why not change tactics? “Did G Dragon
ssi call you afterward your Mnet performance? You know when we were promoting ‘Story of my Life’.”
Hyunseung shook his head. “Jiyong hyung and I talked alot backstage but after that, he got busy again preparing for his album with
Seunghyun hyung.”
“Seunghyun hyung?”
“TOP hyung. Seunghyun is his real name.”
Junhyung nodded. “I see. Wait, isn’t there another Seunghyun that’s your dongsaeng?”
“Which do you mean? Seunghyun as in Seungri or FTI’s Seunghyun?”
“Are you close to the both of them?”
The dancer took his time in answering. “Let’s see. Seungri and I didn’t get along as well in the past unlike the other members. Since he
was cheeky and very playful, my stubborness would always clash with that. But now, Seungri and I are okay. And about Song Seunghyun . . .
what can I say? I love his groundless confidence. When I’m depressed, I sometimes head down to their dorm and watch him dance Ring
Ding Dong and I’ll feel better!”
The rapper shook his head. “You seem very fond of them.” He remarked a little sarcastically,
“Of course! Dongsaengs are meant to be cute and relaxing.”
“Ah.” Junhyung replied. He was sort of hurt. He already knew that he wasn’t cute; he hated doing aegyo because that was already Yoseob’s
turf. And relaxing? Forget it. No one would be able to relax once he started nagging. He mentally sighed and kicked himself for not being an
adorable dongsaeng.
Hyunseung watched in silence as Junhyung continued to think. He interpreted it as the younger being sleepy so he leaned Junhyung’s head against his own shoulder. He’s glad that Junhyung didn’t even look up so he wouldn’t see his blushing face. He knew that he might have been taking advantage of the situation but there was no need for the other to know that. Meanwhile, Junhyung was mentally dancing with happiness. Hyunseung made him lean to him! He couldn’t raise his eyes because of the sparkling glint it now contained. Soon, the two of them fell asleep since they were very comfortable in that position and they even cuddled closer in their sleep.
A slight tap on Hyunseung’s cheek woke him up. “M-mwo?”
Yoseob smiled at him. “Hyung, it’s time to eat dinner. You and Junnie hyung should wake up.”
“Thanks, Seob. You go on ahead.” Hyunseung smiled sweetly then he turned to the man leaning on him. “Jun? Hey, Jun. Wake up.”
The rapper slowly opened his eyes. “Hyung? What’s up?”
“Wake up. We have to eat dinner.”
“I don’t want to. Can’t I just stay here with you?”
“Jun.”
The rapper sighed and hugged Hyunseung. “I want to stay with you like this. I’m not hungry anyway.”
Hyunseung blushed. “O-okay then.”
Doojoon was about to call on them again when he saw that the two was now hugging. He smiled at them then returned to the table. He
didn’t have to interfere anymore. It seemed that Junhyung was finally learning the tactics of the game.
“Hyunseung hyung?”
“Yes, Jun?”
“Nothing.” Junhyung grinned.
“Okay.”
Another minute.
“Hyunseung ah.”
“Neh?”
“I didn’t call you.”
Hyunseung just shook his head.
“Hyunseung hyung.”
No reply,
“Hyunseung hyung.”
No reply.
“Yah, hyung!”
“Are you really going to say something?”
“No.”
“Then don’t call my name.”
“I have something to ask.”
“What is it?”
“What’s up with Kwang and Woon? They’re always together. Same thing goes for Doo hyung and Seobie.”
Hyunseung laughed. “Isn’t it obvious?”
“Nope, that’s why I’m asking.”
Hyunseung crossed his fingers. “They’re together.”
“Mwo?! Together as in together together?!” Junhyung exclaimed.
“Yeah. See how stupid you are? You don’t even know that.”
“Wow. How the heck did I miss that one?”
“If this is any consolation, Seobie and Doojoon hyung aren’t together yet. Doo hyung still hasn’t confessed so yeah.”
“It’s not. Wait, Seob confessed first? I never thought he could do that . . .”
“Yoseob isn’t as innocent as he seems.”
“What do you mean?”
“Nothing.” Hyunseung stood up. “I’m gonna take a shower then sleep, okay? You should probably take some time to digest what I just said
so I’ll leave you alone.”
Junhyung wanted to pull him back but instead he just watched the older with a smile. If everyone else is a couple, well almost, who’s to say that he and Seung had no chance of being together? There’s only one thing that could stand in the way and he has to face the ‘thing’ tomorrow. The thing that goes by the name of Kwon Jiyong.
“Good morning!” G Dragon greeted enthusiastically the next day. Yoseob and Hyunseung opened the door for him and bowed down.
“Morning.” The two said simultaneously.
“Are the others still asleep?” the Big Bang leader asked as he walked in the dorm.
Yoseob shook his head. “They’re in the kitchen, trying to cook something for you.”
“Wow. You didn’t have to go to the trouble. I could anything you have here.”
Hyunseung laughed. “Jiyong hyung is such a pig anyway.”
G Dragon slightly whacked his head and smirked. “At least I’m not 4D, babo.”
Yoseob expected Hyunseung to at least frown but his hyung just smiled and playfully hit Jiyong’s arm. As they continued to head to the kitchen, Jiyong and Hyunseung continued to talk while trying to include the vocal. The youngest replied when he could but his eyes were more focused. He saw that Jiyong’s arms automatically made their way to his hyung’s waist. Were they together? Maybe he shouldn’t jump to conclusions.
“Oh, G Dragon ssi, you’re here.” Doojoon said.
The rest of the kitchen crew looked up and stopped what they were doing and looked at thei visitor. They all noticed the hands on Hyunseung’s waist and they couldn’t stop raising an eyebrow. Hyunseung saw the change of emotion on their face and followed their line of vision. Were they surprised that Jiyong was holding his waist? He mentally laughed. How could they look like that? It was Jiyong for God’s sake.
Junhyung on the other hand was more or less burning holes in those arms. He tried to remember all the things that Yoseob had said to him but they got blurred by those pair of hands. It was Jiyong for fuck’s sake. How could he not feel jealous?
“Is there something you want to say Junhyung ssi?” G dragon suddenly asked. He was smirking slightly, enjoying the reaction from the younger.
The other rapper shook his head and stood up. “I think I need some air. I’m done with my share anyway.” Then he stood up and headed out of the kitchen.
Hyunseung frowned then turned to Yoseob. “Seobie ah. . .”
“Yes, hyung?” Yoseob asked innocently.
Hyunseung gave him the what-did-you-d-now look.
The vocal raised his hands and pouted. “I didn’t do anything to him!”
“Then, what’s wrong with him?”
Jiyong’s eyes lit up and he pulled away from Hyunseung. “I’ll go see what’s up. You look like you guys are still preparing.” Then he walked
off too.
Doojoon nervously scratched the back of his neck. “I have a bad feeling about this.”
Junhyung was leaning on the railings of the porch with his eyes closed when G Dragon saw him. The younger could feel someone’s presence and opened his eyes. He groaned out loud when he saw who it was. Big Bang’s leader didn’t comment on the groan and just went to stand beside the younger. Neither of them spoke for a while until Jiyong finally couldn’t handle the silence.
“Hyunseung is really pretty, isn’t he?” he commented casually.
Junhyung gave him a sideway glance and shrugged. “I guess. But you know, he doesn’t really like being called pretty.”
“Yeah, I know that. He hates being called anything remotely feminine.” Jiyong’s tone implied that he knew a lot about Hyunseung more than
Junhyung did.
“I know that too.”
Jiyong laughed. “You don’t have to get defensive. You’re seung’s best friend in Beast, right?”
‘In Beast.’ Junhyung mentally scoffed. “Well, yeah, I guess. He’s become pretty close to Seob also, why?”
“Do you know who he likes?”
Junhyung choked on nothing and started coughing. “Excuse me?”
G Dragon raised an eyebrow. “I asked if he liked someone.”
“Eh, well, I don’t know.” Junhyung scratched his head. Why was G Dragon asking this?
“How can you not know? I thought you were his best friend.”
“He’s not much into telling things like that anyway.”
Jiyong stared at him then returned his gaze to the nothingness in front of them. “You know if someone likes Hyunseung, he should know.
They’ll never know whether they had the chance with him. Who knows, someone might even steal that babo away from them.”
Junhyung listened carefully to what the other rapper was saying. There was no way that this was just a random topic. “Hyung, why are you telling me this?”
“Why do you think?” Jiyong smiled sadly at him. “I’ve been where you are now, Junhyung so trust me. Silence isn’t always the answer.” He
patted the younger’s back before heading back inside.
Junhyung wanted to call out the other back but his words got lost somewhere. Jiyong’s words were the things on top of his mind right now and he couldn’t shake off the feeling that the rapper knew just how he felt. How could he have known? Junhyung had only found out recently and he was pretty sure that Hyunseung hasn’t noticed yet. Did Yoseob tell him? No, the younger wouldn’t do that on his own. So how the heck did G Dragon find out his secret?
“Thanks a lot for coming over, Jiyong hyung. It’s sort of a relief being here with my members too.” Hyunseung grinned brightly at his hyung.
G Dragon ruffled his hair and smiled back. “Call me anytime you want. I see that everyone here really treats you like a real princess so I
don’t have to worry about anything.”
The younger hit him on the arm and pushed him out of the door. ‘get your ass out of here.”
Doojoon laughed when G Dragon already left. “I like him a lot, Seung. I can see why you’re so attached with him.”
“yeah, hyung. He was really playful with you yet caring also.” Dongwoon added.
Yoseob nodded his head happily. “He really loves you, hyung.”
Hyunseung smiled at all of them then went to sit on the couch beside Junhyung. “Yeah, hyung really loves me but I wish he’d love himself
also. It’s hard to take care of someone like that. He’s such a workaholic and a perfectionist.”
“So that’s where you got it.” Junhyung absentmindedly mumbled.
Hyunseung giggled and nodded. “I got some of my habits from hyung. We’re close that way.”
The next few days were normal for Beast. Going to different schedules then coming home at the dead of the night, no one was strong enough to hold a proper conversation so even if Junhyung wanted to talk-to confess-to Hyunseung so bad, he can’t. His hyung is more tired than any of them because for some reason their manager would always have something for the dancer to do and it upsets every member. Hyunseung also thanks them for their worry but accepts the schedule anyway.
It’s one of those rare days that Junhyung is the first to get home and it’s even afternoon early. Like the responsible umma he is, he decides to do the chores that everyone has more or less neglected because of the schedule. After all that, he took a quick shower then went to lie down in the couch, trying to sleep. He hasn’t even fallen that deep yet when he felt someone cramping him into the small couch.
“Yah. Can’t you see me? Only one person can lie down.” Junhyung said annoyed.
Hyunseung peeked at him from wet lashes. ‘Sorry. I’ll go.”
Jun realized how tight Hyunseung is holding him and quickly pulled the older closer to him. “Hey, tell me what’s wrong.”
Hyunseung squirms within his grasp like he’s trying to avoid the topic but Junhyung won’t let him go. “Aish. Okay, I’ll say it. Jiyong hyung is
together with Seunghyun hyung now.”
The younger undeniably froze. ‘So Hyunseung really had feelings for Jiyong ssi.’ He thought miserably.
“Tell me, Junhyung ah. Am I ugly? How come I’m the only one who doesn’t have anybody? And Jiyong hyung promised me he’ll wait until I
find somebody also. Well, I did give him my go sign since I knew he loved Seunghyun hyung for so long now. I’m happy for them really but I
can’t help but feel alone. I mean everyone has somebody. Doojoon hyung has Seobie while Kwang and Dongwoon are together. And you. .
.” Hyunseung looked up to Junhyung as a tear fell down his cheek. “You have Hara.”
Junhyung felt something take over him so sudden; it caught him off guard too. He was kissing Hyunseung the next second: kissing all those tears away. At first the older didn’t respond, he was too shock. But that soon melted away as the passion took hold of them both. Junhyung pulled them upright while placing his hyung on his lap. Hyunseung grabbed his hair, wanting to make the kiss deeper also. The rapper swore his heart stopped beating when his hyung moaned sweetly. He started trailing down kisses on his hyung’s neck which apparently made Hyunseung very happy if his whimpers were to say anything. His hands were already making their way under the older’s shirt when he felt Hyunseung stiffen.
“J-Jun. . .” Hyunseung panted. His eyes were teary and apologetic.
“What’s wrong?” Junhyung asked.
“This. This is wrong. Fuck, I’m sorry. I’ll just act like this didn’t happen. I’m sorry.” Hyunseung quickly stood up and ran to their bedroom.
Junhyung followed him and knocked gently. “Hyunseung hyung, open up.”
“No.”
“Jang Hyunseung, this is not the time for stubbornness.”
“Yong Junhyung, this is not the time for your stubbornness also.”
Junhyung sighed. “I’m going to count to three. If the door isn’t open by then, I’ll break it down.”
“Go ahead. Doojoon hyung would kill you.”
“I don’t care.”
Hyunseung didn’t answer for a moment then Junhyung heard the soft sound of footsteps approaching the door. “Why would you even do
that, Jun?”
“I don’t want to talk to a door. Open up then I’ll answer.” Junhyung leaned his head against the door.
“I can’t show my face right now. I’m too embarrassed.” Hyunseung softly replied.
“I’m in love with you.” Junhyung said honestly. “This is so not how I planned to confess to you. Damn you, you’re ruining my plans.”
Hyunseung laughed. “You told me you love me then curse me? You are so weird, Jun. “
“Look who’s talking. Now, open the door.”
Hyunseung slowly opened the door and the sight just made Jun’s heart beat faster. His hyung was blushing and his eyes were riveted to
the ground.
“A-are you really in love with me, Jun?”Hyunseung asked while not looking up.
Junhyung entered the room and leaned his forehead against his hyung’s. “Yes. I love you.”
“If you’re saying this just to make me feel better, don’t.”
“Babo, I was really planning on confessing to you today. You just ruined my surprise.”
“Chinja? Were you really going to confess to me?” Hyunseung’s voice was filled with innocent happiness.
Junhyung chuckled and pushed the older inside the room. “Do you want to know how I planned to do it?”
The doe eyed boy nodded with his eyes glazing.
“I planned on getting you alone today. I thought it was going to be hard because of Yoseob but here we are.” Junhyung motioned around the empty room. “Then, I would ask you how your day was and you would sulk because it was too tiring and lean your head against my shoulder. I’ll tease you on how you’re complaining too much then you’d hit me, not that it hurt. You’d walk away from me with a cute pout on your face then I’ll hug you from the back while apologizing.”
Hyunseung laughed. “You had every single detail planned, haven’t you?”
“Don’t interrupt me. I also prepared what I was going to say.” Junhyung frowned.
‘So, what were you going to say?”
“Jang Hyunseung, I was just teasing you because you looked too adorable when I do that. You should know that you pouting and frowning are different things. When you frown, I don’t like it because it means that you’re upset and I don’t want to see you sad or anything like that. You want to know why?” he looked at Hyunseung straight in the eye. “You’re my everything, Hyunnie. I’m sorry it took me a while to figure it out.”
“And I suppose you have my answer in mind also?” Hyunseung asked playfully while wrapping his arms around the younger’s neck.
Jun couldn’t help but grin goofily and wrapped his arms around Hyunseung’s waist. “Well, yeah but I’d like to really hear it from you.”
“What about Hara ssi?” Hyunseung’s face fell a little.
“She doesn’t have anything to do with me anymore. Besides, I know I’ll be happier with you.”
“really now? What if I said no?”
“Our kiss before begs to differ. You even nearly moaned out my name.”
Hyunseung smirked and leaned his face closer, closer.” Jun.”
Junhyung leaned forward, waiting for the kiss. When he got nothing, he saw an amused face.
“Look who’s getting all needy. If you want any, you better catch me, honey.” Hyunseung winked before running off.
Junhyung blinked then smirked. It was a game Hyunseung want, it’s a game he’ll get.