A little ranty
I was just thinking...there's a lot to me and my mind than just what I think about. I think. I mean when I think about it only a few people really know me. I'm afraid I might make a bad impression on people here in Macon. I dunno I guess the way I am is weird. Like I guess I'm not a "perv" all the time. I mean I think and I have feelings too. There's a lot to me too. I guess you really just have to get to know me. Like honestly I don't think I'm gonna get married. I think I'm too much of a guy. Which is always my problem. I was thinking about my brother and his girlfriend. They've been together for a year and a half almost. dOOd sometimes that makes me jealous. To think a 17 year old can find what he thinks is the love of his life when he's 15. Everyone always jokes about how I'm gonna wind up like my Aunt. A very well off bachelorette. But I was thinking that if I ever did want children I would adopt a baby girl from China so she wouldn't get killed. I think another reason I probably wouldn't get married, besides the fact that I come off as too much of a guy, is because I'm afraid of divorce. Deathly. I mean my mom and dad were married when my mom was 16. They've been married for 20 years. They're so lucky. It seems like everyone in america is fascinated with getting married because they think, "hey I can always get a divorce!! Thanks Henry VIII!!!" Hmmm...I dunno what made me think about that. I guess it was something my boss said about how you present yourself to other people. Ok, now I can get out of this feeling of self pity and remorse.