The things you learn...
About a week ago, an interesting event occurred, which i keep meaning to ponder in written form.
Finally, my final project is in a state that i feel able to self-examine without implosion.
So, reasonably late at night last week, around 9.30 maybe, both a knock and a nearly simultaneous doorbell ring on my door happened. We know the upstairs neighbours pretty well, so i opened the door without looking through the peephole. (I used to check it but people almost never stand where i can see them so i got out of the habit.)
Turns out it wasn't the neighbour, but a guy i'd never seen before, about my height, kinda skinny, black, with a do-rag, and on his cell phone. He didn't look up at me but just started to come inside, like on autopilot.
This is what i find interesting: instead of stepping backwards like i hear is the common reaction, i stepped forwards, leaning in with my chest and shoulders, and said medium loudly, "Yo, dude. Wrong apartment."
He looked up, looked startled, saw scholar over my shoulder, and stepped back out. He said, "Sorry bro! Lucky i didn't get shot." and walked away.
(Okay, apologise to scholar and not me? WTF mang?!?)
So at least he had the good grace to be embarrassed and apologise.
But i'm still pondering the implications of the fact that i instinctively moved closer to him, not further away. The choices are, i figure, A) i'm really dumb, B) i'm incredibly badass or C) my subconscious thought he wasn't a threat, and i'd actually capitulate in a truly dangerous situation.
Just something to contemplate in this season of self-reflection.
Finally, my final project is in a state that i feel able to self-examine without implosion.
So, reasonably late at night last week, around 9.30 maybe, both a knock and a nearly simultaneous doorbell ring on my door happened. We know the upstairs neighbours pretty well, so i opened the door without looking through the peephole. (I used to check it but people almost never stand where i can see them so i got out of the habit.)
Turns out it wasn't the neighbour, but a guy i'd never seen before, about my height, kinda skinny, black, with a do-rag, and on his cell phone. He didn't look up at me but just started to come inside, like on autopilot.
This is what i find interesting: instead of stepping backwards like i hear is the common reaction, i stepped forwards, leaning in with my chest and shoulders, and said medium loudly, "Yo, dude. Wrong apartment."
He looked up, looked startled, saw scholar over my shoulder, and stepped back out. He said, "Sorry bro! Lucky i didn't get shot." and walked away.
(Okay, apologise to scholar and not me? WTF mang?!?)
So at least he had the good grace to be embarrassed and apologise.
But i'm still pondering the implications of the fact that i instinctively moved closer to him, not further away. The choices are, i figure, A) i'm really dumb, B) i'm incredibly badass or C) my subconscious thought he wasn't a threat, and i'd actually capitulate in a truly dangerous situation.
Just something to contemplate in this season of self-reflection.