I'm not good enough

[yslover]

I will never be good enough
Is that why you left?
I'm not pretty enough
I'm not skinny
I don't have flawless skin.

I hate you I really do. It's like a scar in me
I find it hard to trust people.
I don't want to be like that
you make me insecure.

I feel like I'll never ever be good enough my whole entire life.
I really hope in the future, I will find a guy and open my heart
Trust and love again.
Can I trust another guy to not cheat?
Can they take my insecurity?

why do you have to hurt me in this way that it leaves a scar. a deep scar.
I really really don't want to care about you.
Please let time pass faster.

Now, everytime I want to cry. I calm myself down and think of other stuffs.
I don't want to shed another tear for you. while you are happy with someone else.
I don't deserve this pain.
I don't.
You're the one in the wrong
not me. not me.