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I've realized soomething. It was selfish of me to keep asking for her back. I guess i'm just gonna have to live with the fact that its really over. but you know what? I just want her to be really happy. i'm finally seeing things clearly. I'm sorry for putting you through all that...i Just couldn't handle losing you...i wont lie i still can't but like you said, who know's what's goin to happen in the future. whatever happens, I just hope she finds someone who can make her feel good. As long as she wants to still be friends i'll be ok =D don't get me wrong, I still want her but ya...its ok i'll live. i've learned something important today, Grandpa, Please get better, i've learned serious shit isn't funny...everytime I think about you, I just worry. Laughing is not the feelin to have when shit hits the fan...i'm prayin for you...