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[youwantthis2302]

ever get to that point where you're just so pissed that if ONE MORE THING HAPPENS YOU'RE GONNA BLOW UP. yeah? that's me right now. funny thing is, i can't tell you exactly why i'm like that. but, yeah... let's just start saying that i woke up late, ran around like a chicken with it's head cut off. started a fight with my mother, because she kept talking smack about how i think the whole world revolves around me. PLEASE! i'm the LAST fucking person in that house that the world revolves around. i think she's just pissed off because i cussed her life out for her on sunday about my step dad. i'm almost just thinking about being a total fucking bitch to both of them and just ignoring them and not even talking to them. they're so disrespectful to me, and my mom just let's john pull the worst shit. and if roles were reversed, i would get my ass chewed. but since it's john, it's okay. so anyways, i get to work, and cindy was scheduled at 11. didn't come in until a little after 12 (which i didn't care) but as soon as she came in joann went in hitler mode again. she's like, "check the schedule, you were scheduled at 11!" and cindy was like, "yeah i know i forgot to set my alarm clock" and then pretty princess was like, "since nadine's slow, you need to go in nancy's office." and just walked off. and cindy's like, "did she say anything to you?" (prolly referring to what nancy told us about her "putting her foot down"). i'm like, "no, just being a bitch like normal." lol. fuck her. she's so gay. i'd like to see her be a bitch to me. i'm so stressed out right now i'd fucking walk out and i don't care. it's so slow today, and i'm hoping to god that nancy doesn't keep cindy in commissions all day. cause if i'm stuck back here in this hole i think i just might die! i went to the mall on my lunch break and went to write a check and i have NO CLUE where my wallet is. i don't know if i left it at home. but i couldn't do shit because i didn't have my driver's license. nice day huh? god i'm so irritated. and i'm prolly even more irritated cause fag and pretty pretty went to lunch together while i was gone at lunch. they always do that, like i'm not going to know they're eating lunch together. cause i'm some kinda idiot! a part of me has been really really upset with myself for doing what i did and wanting to talk to him and feeling so messed up. and i seriously don't know if i even want to talk to him. even though i hate just being like this and not feeling like i came to a resolution, i almost just want to say, "FUCK IT!" because he's making me not give a flying pig about him. and she's just making my life a living hell and it totally ruffles my feathers that i gave her that power. she's just being a total bitch, so i'm not even talking to her unless i have to. there's a big difference between being a manager and being a flat out bitch. she was talking to someone saying, "yeah i think i need to go to the gym and do some kick boxing or something." i'm not even going to say what i was thinking when she said that! i'm looking for a new job. i'm really not playing around anymore. i can't deal with this place.

closing thought: yeah you too buddy!