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I think I am finally ready for fall...and, in that case, might as well bring on the snow! I also think I've finally settled into the semester. It took a while, but over the past few weeks I've somehow moved on from that which was causing most of my troubles.
Emotionally, I have moved on. I will refrain from using the word "finally" in that statement because the time it has taken was time needed, no more, no less. Though few and far between, there are, however, moments when I find myself glancing randomly at the stars, or getting chills from a piece of music, and suddenly a fleet of memories come sailing through my mind all at once. I can not control when this happens- I am a human being, I am passionate, and I am moved in many ways, some ways in which only I can understand. I can, however, control my reactions to such moments by simply taking them for what they are. Many of my fondest memories from over the course of the past year or so still cause more sadness and some kind of yearning than anything else, but I just don't let that get to me anymore. Life lesson #[fill in the blank]: Nothing good comes out of dwelling on the past, wishing that things had turned out differently.
As far as school goes (you know, the other part of college), things are generally working out. Music theory is trying to take me out- with mediocre midterms in both lab and lecture, I leave much to be desired. However, I not only composed, but received nearly a perfect score on my minuet for lecture, and I am NOT a composer by any means. That will surely help to even out my average performance in theory thus far. The rest of my classes, music history (which could potentially be the death of me, no matter how well I do), math, vocal tech, blah blah blah are pretty good. At this point, my fate shall be decided by my finals. Oh dear. Fortunately, I have found that actually taking it easy for once and not stressing about schoolwork in general has helped me stay relaxed, not to mention I'm managing to still do well academically. If only I had tried this in middle school...oy. I have an excellent time management and prioritizing system. It's simple to understand and I've pretty much always worked this way, except now I do not allow myself to become stressed out! When homework or a project is assigned, I find that if I start early and work for a short amount of time just about every day on any given assignment, I end up either ahead of the game or right on time. I absolutely refuse to pull an all-nighter, unless it is 100 percent necessary, and this system has, thus far, made this easy to stay true to.
Thanksgiving break can not come soon enough. I am eager to see many of my friends, some of whom I have not seen in a year. Good times will surely ensue:) I also just got hired at The Gap at Evergreen Walk (at least for the holiday season), so I'll finally be able to earn a few dollars. Three cheers for being a poor college student!
All in all, I feel more at ease around here, moreso than I did even a couple weeks ago. I still think a nice break, whether that be in November, or during Winter Break, is the clincher in my returning to UConn completely refreshed, free from all the "woe is me" bullshit I have experienced since the start of the semester. And special thanks go out to all of my dearest and most amazing friends who have truly done wonders for me. In the words of my big, sexy Jewish lover: "I really didn't understand the true meaning of friendship until you," or something like that. ;)
Much <3, peace, and happiness,
Jen
p.s. It's my birthday Wednesday! You better get me something good! :)
Emotionally, I have moved on. I will refrain from using the word "finally" in that statement because the time it has taken was time needed, no more, no less. Though few and far between, there are, however, moments when I find myself glancing randomly at the stars, or getting chills from a piece of music, and suddenly a fleet of memories come sailing through my mind all at once. I can not control when this happens- I am a human being, I am passionate, and I am moved in many ways, some ways in which only I can understand. I can, however, control my reactions to such moments by simply taking them for what they are. Many of my fondest memories from over the course of the past year or so still cause more sadness and some kind of yearning than anything else, but I just don't let that get to me anymore. Life lesson #[fill in the blank]: Nothing good comes out of dwelling on the past, wishing that things had turned out differently.
As far as school goes (you know, the other part of college), things are generally working out. Music theory is trying to take me out- with mediocre midterms in both lab and lecture, I leave much to be desired. However, I not only composed, but received nearly a perfect score on my minuet for lecture, and I am NOT a composer by any means. That will surely help to even out my average performance in theory thus far. The rest of my classes, music history (which could potentially be the death of me, no matter how well I do), math, vocal tech, blah blah blah are pretty good. At this point, my fate shall be decided by my finals. Oh dear. Fortunately, I have found that actually taking it easy for once and not stressing about schoolwork in general has helped me stay relaxed, not to mention I'm managing to still do well academically. If only I had tried this in middle school...oy. I have an excellent time management and prioritizing system. It's simple to understand and I've pretty much always worked this way, except now I do not allow myself to become stressed out! When homework or a project is assigned, I find that if I start early and work for a short amount of time just about every day on any given assignment, I end up either ahead of the game or right on time. I absolutely refuse to pull an all-nighter, unless it is 100 percent necessary, and this system has, thus far, made this easy to stay true to.
Thanksgiving break can not come soon enough. I am eager to see many of my friends, some of whom I have not seen in a year. Good times will surely ensue:) I also just got hired at The Gap at Evergreen Walk (at least for the holiday season), so I'll finally be able to earn a few dollars. Three cheers for being a poor college student!
All in all, I feel more at ease around here, moreso than I did even a couple weeks ago. I still think a nice break, whether that be in November, or during Winter Break, is the clincher in my returning to UConn completely refreshed, free from all the "woe is me" bullshit I have experienced since the start of the semester. And special thanks go out to all of my dearest and most amazing friends who have truly done wonders for me. In the words of my big, sexy Jewish lover: "I really didn't understand the true meaning of friendship until you," or something like that. ;)
Much <3, peace, and happiness,
Jen
p.s. It's my birthday Wednesday! You better get me something good! :)