I've got a sickness
I haven't had anything new to say for a while, seemed like the same old chorus routine...Until now.
Lately, I have encountered a couple disturbing things about life, people and myself. All people are incredibly average. What a fucking bummer. Not to say that I expected supernatural abilities (though that would satisfy my taste for sci fi). We all kinda fall into the same life march, toe to toe and we're happy doing it or eventually we will be. I believe that if you step out of the line you're bound to be left lonely and desolate in the end, but if you keep up/in line there is gratification. Most of my friends are on the road to marriage and family,most of them are already married just without the ring, paper or tax break.
Why why why why why????
Am I in the wrong place, why don't I want the things they want and why oh why am I repulsed by it? The answer is not as simple as to say we are all different, I feel like they are infected or maybe I am. I am not saying what they choose is wrong, just trying to understand it.
I've just lost soo much respect some how for most of these people who claim to want change but aren't doing anything, the people who hide behind the banner of feminism but are soo cookie cutter they put Betty Crocker out of business. Maybe they will be happy, but whose happiness are they filling. Fighting the natural is impossible, I'm sure the first feeling an infant feels is attachment, or is it hunger, gas? Well, I do know that that child will most likely stop crying when someone holds them, and maybe that's true for older folk. Are we all big babies?
At what point do things change? During menopause, when we no longer have to keep ourselves up to the worlds physical/nuclear standards? Or maybe after our first born (cause we've done our cause)? You can say fuck me... Fuck me. Cause I don't know anything. Maybe one of you can educate me.. Cause I don't think I'll ever understand.
M
Lately, I have encountered a couple disturbing things about life, people and myself. All people are incredibly average. What a fucking bummer. Not to say that I expected supernatural abilities (though that would satisfy my taste for sci fi). We all kinda fall into the same life march, toe to toe and we're happy doing it or eventually we will be. I believe that if you step out of the line you're bound to be left lonely and desolate in the end, but if you keep up/in line there is gratification. Most of my friends are on the road to marriage and family,most of them are already married just without the ring, paper or tax break.
Why why why why why????
Am I in the wrong place, why don't I want the things they want and why oh why am I repulsed by it? The answer is not as simple as to say we are all different, I feel like they are infected or maybe I am. I am not saying what they choose is wrong, just trying to understand it.
I've just lost soo much respect some how for most of these people who claim to want change but aren't doing anything, the people who hide behind the banner of feminism but are soo cookie cutter they put Betty Crocker out of business. Maybe they will be happy, but whose happiness are they filling. Fighting the natural is impossible, I'm sure the first feeling an infant feels is attachment, or is it hunger, gas? Well, I do know that that child will most likely stop crying when someone holds them, and maybe that's true for older folk. Are we all big babies?
At what point do things change? During menopause, when we no longer have to keep ourselves up to the worlds physical/nuclear standards? Or maybe after our first born (cause we've done our cause)? You can say fuck me... Fuck me. Cause I don't know anything. Maybe one of you can educate me.. Cause I don't think I'll ever understand.
M