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Yay! Another day of being depressed. I'm starting to kinda get used to it. And it always has to be once I begin to get into a good mood or something then something brings me back down. Take for instance 3 nights ago. Thought I was gonna talk to Jess before I went out for a lil while, ended up having some guy answer the phone (the guy she's now hooking up with) and then I was completely bummed for the rest of that night and the following day. Well finally yesterday I was over it again and back to normal, but oh no...Can't have that can we. I read Jess's journal to find where she was talking about kissing the guy. So she gets pissed an my ex for putting stuff like that in her journal to let everyone know, yet she does it as well as a way for me to find out about it. So like as if it isn't hard enough for me to get over her as it is, she keeps pilling shit on. But whatever. I've come to learn that someone who can treat me this shitty isn't the right person for me. I've honestly like cried more in the past couple weeks then I have in my entire life. No more tears...of course I say that now and then two days later I'll find out about something else with her or attempt to call and have some asshole answer the phone again, but wishful thinking right? right....