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god...... last night i talked to rick again.... it felt like he was sitting right next to me.... but its still not the same... and i miss just sitting up all night in my apt or in his room just talking about the future.... he was always so sweet.... i'll never forget when he said "everytime i see you, i feel the way i did when we were in love....i'll never be over you completely..." god.... why didnt i just go back with him? we wouldve been so happy together ...again.... i hate this... cos now we'll never know....
i hate that i loved him so much and i hate that we cared so much about each other....bc then it wouldnt feel this bad.... i need to get out of this hole im in.... i know he's watching over me....and thts all i cant ask and hope for now... until i can see him again...and hold him and just be us together.... god.... make this better so
i hate that i loved him so much and i hate that we cared so much about each other....bc then it wouldnt feel this bad.... i need to get out of this hole im in.... i know he's watching over me....and thts all i cant ask and hope for now... until i can see him again...and hold him and just be us together.... god.... make this better so