just when things were getting good
everything has been amazing these past few weeks. some things were hard but i feel like i am moving in a very good direction. my promotion rocks, adam is amazing, jc gave me a kitten and i am going to detroit on saturday.
then my mom has to smash my face with a brick.
she has decided she doesn't want to see me while i am in MI. she thinks i am dumb for bringing adam. also, my grandmother is dying and my existance is making that pain worse. the dog i gave her is sick, and that is my fault as well, since after all... i brought the dog into her life. she also went through my boxed stuff there and realized i am going to end up just like her, so she doesn't want to deal with it or me. apparently i am a burden on the family (what family?) and she is sick of it. i am going nowhere and i am destined to be alone and depressed. she would rather not talk to me or see me.
now, i tried to explain how well i am doing, and how happy i am. no matter. i am not mad at her, but i feel like a puppy she bought then decided she didn't want. like she thinks to herself, i hate this thing, so i will beat it until it runs away. meanwhile i just keep jumping on her bed to fall asleep next to the one i love. is it time to jump down? or maybe she needs someone to say, fuck you... you don't mean what you say.
not quite sure what to do...
i guess i'll just keep up with myself...
maybe someday she will change her mind.
she ALMOST ruined the echo and the bunnymen show.
little did she know,
it was just too damn good to ruin.
and so am i.
then my mom has to smash my face with a brick.
she has decided she doesn't want to see me while i am in MI. she thinks i am dumb for bringing adam. also, my grandmother is dying and my existance is making that pain worse. the dog i gave her is sick, and that is my fault as well, since after all... i brought the dog into her life. she also went through my boxed stuff there and realized i am going to end up just like her, so she doesn't want to deal with it or me. apparently i am a burden on the family (what family?) and she is sick of it. i am going nowhere and i am destined to be alone and depressed. she would rather not talk to me or see me.
now, i tried to explain how well i am doing, and how happy i am. no matter. i am not mad at her, but i feel like a puppy she bought then decided she didn't want. like she thinks to herself, i hate this thing, so i will beat it until it runs away. meanwhile i just keep jumping on her bed to fall asleep next to the one i love. is it time to jump down? or maybe she needs someone to say, fuck you... you don't mean what you say.
not quite sure what to do...
i guess i'll just keep up with myself...
maybe someday she will change her mind.
she ALMOST ruined the echo and the bunnymen show.
little did she know,
it was just too damn good to ruin.
and so am i.