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[yourenotmyangel]

i can honestly say... i cared about kyle gaither more than any other boy ive had feelings for...
letting it all go... was the hardest thing in the world...
its still really hard not wanting to talk to him..

kyle patrick tudor.. is amazing...
all in all...

i know this isnt a waste of time... i know it..
cause he doesnt hold back on telling me what he thinks or feels...
and it amazes me..

even kissing him on the cheek makes him super happy... and god.. i couldnt ask for anything more..

i dont want something stupid or pointless...
i want to cuddle... and not worry about anything..
i want a best friend....

not sex... not making out....
cause that ruins everything....

sex is the one thing that can ruin everything.... look at me and kyle gaither...
we were amazing til i took his virginity... and i wish i hadnt.... more than anything....
thats something i wish wouldve never happened...

i love what we had..
but its done...

and i think its all for a good reason..
but we will find out soon huh?

i love melissa for introducing me to kyle patrick...

i know me and her met bc of seth... but i love her now