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[yourcoldfeet]

so i've been feeling kind of down on and off today. i don't know why. i wonder if i have been reading so much to drown out my life? i mean i like reading, learning about things, stimulating my brain. maybe it's both. yesterday i went to tybee island, it was pretty random actually, these two guys i have said hey to before, that's it, told me they were going to the ocean and asked me to join them. i couldn't tell if they were serious. so they gave me a ride to my dorm and then came in with me and that's when i guess i realized they were serious, so i packed up and we headed onward to savanna. it was funny cause we were going to stop at this gas station for tums, which happened to be next to this bar that was having keryoke so we went in, a bunch of older drunk people. davy, who was one of the ppl i came with, sung the fresh prince of belair. it was hilarious. they had a dance break, but i couldn't make myself get up to dance(even though i wanted to) until like the last 45 seconds of the last song, twas dissapointing. then a guy that worked there asked for ids and we were like were only 18 and he's like well you gotta go cuz 18 years olds were have already have supposed to have been gone by 10. so we left and reached the beach! it was beautiful. you could see the moon, stars and clouds! everything was so flat, i'm so used to trees and buildings. there was a suprising # of ppl at the beach so late at night. i found myself feeling like a kid, looking at the stars. all these questions and thought were flowing through my head. i realized how i think of the moon sort of as a piece of the landscape of earth, when really it is not on the earth, we can just usually always see it. why is the sky blue? why is the sky black at night but not during the day? i mean how is the whole earth lit up during the day so blue and bright, but at night it's like we're really floating in space. i love the line from the flaming lips song, "do you realize we're floating in space?" last night i felt so small compared to everything. we've made the earth so devoted to humans, every thing is so human sized, cars, houses... but when your outside there is so much space and room, no confinements. i was thinking the other day how i would love to live in the mountains or out in the forrest somewhere in a cabin or cottage. in a community where we pretty much self supply ourself, like some people grow food, others make clothes and teach. it would be amazing. i would love to live closer to nature(i mean true outdoors where everything isn't cut down). i find i think about when i'm older some, just how i imagine things.

i'm thinking of watching a movie. i'm in a better mood than i was at the beginning of this entry:)