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[yourclementine]

today was just right. i was in a very solitary mood. one of those moods where you can walk and just be. almost float. and it feels as though people can only see you when you let them, it feels as though you can walk right through them if you wish. i took a walk today, with goals in mind. goals like go to the bank and cash a check. but alas, it was closed. then i looked across the street and saw a thrift store. i wasnt in the mood to be spending, for i have no money anymore, but it felt nice looking around. i imagined what the store owner must be thinking, made up a story about how we started to talk and she hired me and i started work at the register and people would come in, regular customers who knew me by name, as if it was our own little world. and then reaching the end of the rack, i left the store and kept walking, taking a different way home, passing such a perfect little neighborhood with so many houses for rent. perhaps i will live in one of those one day. perhaps i can convince my roomie that we should live there instead of an apartment.

all in all, i feel very distant and uncaring, very passive and calm. but in a good way. as if i were in water.

Thank You
Thank You for not being afraid
To touch me
Or give me a hug
When everyone else acted
Like nothing was wrong

Thank You
Thank You for talking to me
For telling me
I am here for a reason
And thats it's ok to be scared
When everyone else acted
Like it was all ok

Thank You
Thank You for being that friend
Who didn't judge me
On what I said
Or what I looked like
When everyone else acted
Like that was all that mattered

Thank You
Thank You for being that shoulder
That I cried on at night
When I felt I was different
Because I couldn't do what everyone else did
And you told me it was alright
When everyone else acted
Like I didn't matter