Geeze
I don't ever get on here to check things anymore. I've been overwhelmed lately with life which makes me want to get on here and write. Tonight kind of did one over on me and I don't really have a choice but to write.
There are a lot of close friends that I know right now that are hurting and upset. I can't do anything to fix that and I feel bad too. Some people have an effect on you even if you aren't that close to them. There are certain attributes of Rhubarb that even I won't forget. She was one of the only people that I knew that truly didn't give a shit what most people thought of her. A lot of us say we don't care but she really didn't. I keep thinking of her in that goddamn blue dress from Prom with Gilles and her combat boots.
Even Gram remembers her and she doesn't remember anyone. I want to be there for everyone right now and if you need me I am here. I just hope I can help in some way but I know I really can't.
A few days ago I found out Brittney was murdered and that already had me screwed up. We didn't get along but that's just not right. None of this is okay. Things aren't supposed to end this way for people. I always like to think people get second chances but I guess they don't. It just makes me think about how much every decision effects us. I don't like it at all.
I always feel like when people die the world should stop or something but it doesn't we just go on with our days not knowing until the information gets to us. People can be gone for days or weeks before we know. I don't like that either.
I wish that people were more receptive to their friends concerns but they aren't. I just worry about this happening again. Their isn't anyway to stop it. I know too many friends who do too many things that could end up bad. Vulnerability is dumb. People dying is dumb. People dying when they are young is dumb. It's crap.
Homework doesn't seem that important right now.
Whitney
There are a lot of close friends that I know right now that are hurting and upset. I can't do anything to fix that and I feel bad too. Some people have an effect on you even if you aren't that close to them. There are certain attributes of Rhubarb that even I won't forget. She was one of the only people that I knew that truly didn't give a shit what most people thought of her. A lot of us say we don't care but she really didn't. I keep thinking of her in that goddamn blue dress from Prom with Gilles and her combat boots.
Even Gram remembers her and she doesn't remember anyone. I want to be there for everyone right now and if you need me I am here. I just hope I can help in some way but I know I really can't.
A few days ago I found out Brittney was murdered and that already had me screwed up. We didn't get along but that's just not right. None of this is okay. Things aren't supposed to end this way for people. I always like to think people get second chances but I guess they don't. It just makes me think about how much every decision effects us. I don't like it at all.
I always feel like when people die the world should stop or something but it doesn't we just go on with our days not knowing until the information gets to us. People can be gone for days or weeks before we know. I don't like that either.
I wish that people were more receptive to their friends concerns but they aren't. I just worry about this happening again. Their isn't anyway to stop it. I know too many friends who do too many things that could end up bad. Vulnerability is dumb. People dying is dumb. People dying when they are young is dumb. It's crap.
Homework doesn't seem that important right now.
Whitney