i should be studying...but i really dont care.
only four more weeks of school left. its insane. 8 months ago i was dreading going off to college. i was missing my friends from fremont, i was scared and lonely. now i wouldnt change anything. im so glad i left and came here. ive experienced so much that has made me a better person. i realized that some of the friendships i had treasured at home weren't friendships at all. the people ive come to know and love here have taught me so much about life and what a true friend is. fremont will always be my hometown. but somewhere along the way in these past 8 months, sacramento became the place i call "home". and i mean home. fremont isnt home anymore, and as much as i miss all the memories and people sometimes, nothing will ever make it "home" again. its now just the place i grew up. sacramento state is home. and the sac kids are my family. they've been here for me no matter what. they've helped to experience things that ve never experienced before. i had the best roomate possible. im so glad merry is my roomate, i dont know what i wouldve done without her and he genuine kindness and compassion. lauren, megan, casey, shawna, gigi, nick, steve, deuce, zack, chad, and everyone else that ive gotten so close to, those are the kind of friendships you keep forever. someone told me once that your life really begins in college, and that the friends you made in high school most often lose touch with you. i didnt want to believe it but its true. i hardly talk to many of the friends i was so tight with in hs. but i guess thats life. and this is the next chapter of my life. my first year in college was so much better than i ever expected it to be. i know ive changed, and people might say it was for the worse. "all jenny does is party and get drunk" well if you knew me at all youd know thats not true. try leaving home and going off to college. its a completely different atmosphere than you'd think. and i think ive changed for the better. yes i go out and party, but that doesnt mean im always getting drunk. i am sober driver, sometimes i just dont feel like drunking, or sometimes i dont even feel like going out. all i know is regardless if im drinking or not i know im gonna have the time of my life because the people im with make anything fun. college has been the experience of a lifetime, and im so glad i made the decision to come here. fremont will always be my hometown, and ill never forget the friends or memories that fremont left me with. but high school is over, and its time to move on. its time to "start living for me" as james said. ill cherish the friendships i keep, and ill be sad about the ones i lost, esp the one person i know i hurt, but i have to move on. i look forward to 3 more of the best years of my life. staying up to late in school nights hanging out, partying with the people who ive become so close with, taking road trips to hometowns, going awesome places for spring break...and so much more. life...here i come!