I'll break it down for ya, now baby, it's simple.

[your_angel_eyes]

I wish I could just figure out what I want. Like, what will make me the happiest. Because I'm so sick of people telling me what I should do when they really don't know what they're talking about. And I wish first loves weren't so hard to get over. But maybe I don't want to be over it. It's like somewhere inside of me I've always felt (or known?) that we would just pull it together some day. And stop being fucking stupid and realize that how we feel about each other is real for once. It's not even like everyone else who says they're in love, but if the relationship breaks off, they only hurt for a certain amount of time, or until they find someone else to lie to. It's just not like that at all. Everytime I think about him or sleep or breathe it hurts so much. And I'm not some obsessive crazy psycho like fucking everyone else. It's just that I'm still really hurt about it. And to know that it's my fault this time that it didn't work out, that kills me.

I know what I want, but I can't have it.

I'm sorry.