Sooo close I can feel it

[youngin04]

Ok so today is november 1st and i have exactly a month and 19 days until my due date and IM TERRIFIED!!! I guess me and mike are getting along better...not me and his mom though, we probably never will. oh well she wont ruin my life. So my lil Jayeson is sick with a cold....and i have severe acid reflux...it sucks. So last night the boys went trick or treating they looked so darn cute in their lil purple and green monster suits....they were very exhausted at the end of the night yet didnt go to bed til 10:30 and then darian decided to wake mommy up at 6:15 ahhhhh!!!! n e ways yesterday they didnt take naps all day so thats why they were so tired....and for the last couple days they will not eat...like sometimes they will but mostly they wont...just nibble on stuff like crackers from time to time...and mike says they eat at his house...yeah right well tell me this genius why do they eat at your house and not here...wow i think he really does try to be a better parent than me sometimes like a competition thing or somthing i dont know...like he says they sleep all night at his house...but for some strange reason they dont here...well heres the reason cuz your mom sleeps with them....but he says thats not true also....i dont know...i guess i am just a terrible mom who cant get her kids to do n e thing....so our computer has a color cord problem and the color randomly goes out and it is super annoying...i was sitting in the rocking chair rocking darian to sleep today and this song came on the radio and it was sad and i was starring at the pic of me and mike from last year at this time and i started cryin cuz i cant believe how wrong i was to him.....i love him so much and cant imagine being with n e one else/ no one else would make me as happy as he does....i just cant believe how much we as a people now a days can just hurt the people we love so much as much as we do...i dunno...n e ways today he came over before he had to go to school ( cuz i wont see him til thursday now) cuz he has school and work wednsday n e ways so he was being so weird like really nice sitting by me and kissing me and touchin my belly and just not like his usual detached self....I WISH HE WOULD ASK ME TO MARRY HIM...skank....ashhhhhhkdjfasjfdiojiowejfkasdjfklsd...sorry frustration took over...but n e ways gotta go check my email now...im out I LOVE MY WINGFIELD BOYS....
LOVE JESS