Soooo its been a lonnnnnnggggggg time!!!!
Ok well I forget when i wrote last but i know its been a long time...all i know is i am 7 months pregnant and i love mike more than i ever have and yet we still argue and fight....guess why....it has to do with family almost always...his mom hates me which is fine because i reciprocate those feelings...she is the only thing holding him back from really loving me how he should and could...i know she wishes i was black or somthin GOD why cant i just get a man with a normal family...it breaks my heart because i want a family like where i can go shopping with his mom and be close to her but i could never be like that with that woman she is nuts...she must be jealous because mike loves me too...GOD grow up right? Well then again there is the fact that mike puts her on this sky high pedestal...he does everything for her...she is helpless...AHHHHHH I just hate her sooo much i cant even begin to explain it...she has no reason not to like me but she always tries to find shit thats wrong with me...and mike thinks im the problem...i am giving him 6 months to prove to me his family(me and the boys) mean more to him than kissing his moms ass all the time...if we dont have an apartment and shit hasnt changed in 6 months i am finding someone else and ill be on my own and I SWEAR ON A STACK OF BIBLES i am done with hime. I cant make her like me and neither can he but he cant tell her to be nice and stuff...the times my mom would be mad at mike but she has more respect for me than to be mean or hateful to him. Some people just dont have that kinda respect for their children. She is competeing with me for his attention and i dont think its fair she has had him for 23 years so let go just a lil is that tooo much to ask????????? I need advice from anyone....i feel like shipping her off to a foreign country with a one way ticket. HELP Jessica