For Annie

[youloveatreyu]

So Annie, the reason I haven't updated is because I don't have much to say lately. But, I will do it, just for you. I feel like shit. I feel like I have lost everything I have ever loved, and I don't know why. Is it me? Am I really that big of an asshole? I feel like when people look at me, they just see this thing, this emotional vampire, who just

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[youloveatreyu]

Yeah, your thoughts actually did help a lot, Annie, and I thank you so much for that. I hope I can do the same for you, when you need help. My post was directed all towards Whit either, I mean, some of it was, cause her post made me feel like shit for hurting her, but some of it was directed towards Camill too. I've basically lost her too, and it's like all this shit, all these emotions, are flooding me at the same time. Saying goodbye to a girl who was such a good friend for a long time, and welcoming back the first girl I ever loved into my life AS friend, so my feelings are totally mixed. I know nothing I can ever say or do will make the thing I have done in the past right, but what I want for RIGHT NOW is to make the future better. I want the pain to go away and I want the answers I have been waiting for. Does that make sense to you? By having Whit back in my life, I might finally get those answers. Some closure. And maybe gain a good friend to replace those that I have lost. As for Camill, I don't think anything I can say will make her be my friend again, and that hurts, eternally, but I guess it is out of my hands now. It's up to her to decide if she loved me enough, or thought enough of me, or whatever, to forgive me and start over building what we once had. And finally, thank you for being there and letting me talk to you. If feels great knowing I can talk to someone. Thank you. I love you.