missed me missed me now you gotta kiss me!
So this journal used to be where I put my thoughts when I was just a babe, those thoughts used to be happy. I want more happy thoughts, so this is gonna be my journal where I recap my days and try to be positive.
I have about 10 minutes before Keither gets here so forgive my errors (you know me).
Oh Keith! Forgive me for gushing and Kelsey this is probably exactly what I wrote in your pcard but he's been my angel.
I'm not sure why but I trust him so fully. We've been together almost every single day lately, even if it's just been while at work. I go to bed at night with my face hurting from smiling so much :-D! We've just clicked, it reminds me of when I was 15 and I had a real best friend (tommy).
The only thing that I can even complain about is that he's hard of hearing (both of his parents are deaf and so is his sister) so I generally have to speak LOUD. It's a little frustrating because sometimes it literally hurts me to talk... not all the time but once in a while it takes alot of effort to really speak that loud, or at all. I'm weird I guess.
But otherwise, he's exactly what I need right now and I don't mind spending any free time with him, it sucks that he lives like 45 minutse away but I don't mind it and I hope he doesn't either. he cares about me and makes me feel like he thinks I'm worth something. Maybe I've never really had that - I mean I have but not fully. I don't want to get too close though, for him and for me, not yet and for alot of reasons.
I have an appointment Friday.
I just want to pretend nothing ever happened and until at least Friday that's what I plan to do. After that I will do what needs to be done, take responsibility for myself for once. I may be looking forward to it a little, but I don't want to get my hopes up.
especially sicne i'm leaving hot topic and won't have that extra income anymore. but i'll survive, i guess i'm good at that.
i'm okay i'm okay i'm okay, i promise :-)
anddddddd. right on time.
love everyone <3
I have about 10 minutes before Keither gets here so forgive my errors (you know me).
Oh Keith! Forgive me for gushing and Kelsey this is probably exactly what I wrote in your pcard but he's been my angel.
I'm not sure why but I trust him so fully. We've been together almost every single day lately, even if it's just been while at work. I go to bed at night with my face hurting from smiling so much :-D! We've just clicked, it reminds me of when I was 15 and I had a real best friend (tommy).
The only thing that I can even complain about is that he's hard of hearing (both of his parents are deaf and so is his sister) so I generally have to speak LOUD. It's a little frustrating because sometimes it literally hurts me to talk... not all the time but once in a while it takes alot of effort to really speak that loud, or at all. I'm weird I guess.
But otherwise, he's exactly what I need right now and I don't mind spending any free time with him, it sucks that he lives like 45 minutse away but I don't mind it and I hope he doesn't either. he cares about me and makes me feel like he thinks I'm worth something. Maybe I've never really had that - I mean I have but not fully. I don't want to get too close though, for him and for me, not yet and for alot of reasons.
I have an appointment Friday.
I just want to pretend nothing ever happened and until at least Friday that's what I plan to do. After that I will do what needs to be done, take responsibility for myself for once. I may be looking forward to it a little, but I don't want to get my hopes up.
especially sicne i'm leaving hot topic and won't have that extra income anymore. but i'll survive, i guess i'm good at that.
i'm okay i'm okay i'm okay, i promise :-)
anddddddd. right on time.
love everyone <3