oh and....
sorry I was cut off earlier
I went putt-putting!!! I haven't been to magic mountain in forever, we won 595 tickets! and I kicked keithers ass in basketball AND air hockey. dudes, i rule.
it was weird though, like a flashback because the only other time I'd been to the MM at Polaris was with Justin and it's funny because I'm talking to him alot now and what's even WEIRDER! is that he and Whitney are like, hooking up. I swear that girl is all up in my leftovers, first Mark now Justin? I love her to death but life is strange.
I stole my golf ball (don't tell). I know, I'm a terrible thief *hide!*
Speaking of theft...
So Hot Topic is "writing me up" for wearing merchandise rather than firing me for stealing.
and this is why I'm quitting. Honestly? Why would I steal a $2 bracelet when I spend almost my entire paycheck there every 2 wks? I hate Devin. I always knew she has it out for me, I don't know how many times I said that she was just looking to get me fired or make me quit - well she got her way. I can NOT believe she tried to accuse me of stealing. and what's worse is that I can't believe that Justine (the DM) backed her up basically.
But I'm glad they didn't fire me because now I can quit. and if anything progresses with keith down the line, then it won't matter because we both won't be working there anymore and really he's more of an asset to the store than me because of all the deaf kids that come in. I'm just appauled and I'm going to make every flaw in the policies and procedures known, and basically just rip to shreds the entire company in my 2wks notice. Laura is quitting too. Devin has had her in tears 3 times in the past 2 weeks, no one deserves to be treated so unfairly in the workplace, or anywhere for that matter. I guess if everything happens for a reason then this was my kick in the face to leave, I've wanted to quit for a while but never had the balls and this was basically rogaine for the hair on the metaphorical ballsack if you will. ew gross.
I don't even mind, I had a wonderful night.
Boys night out blasting in the cool air.
realizing i'll actually have a small amount of money in a week.
having friends that are girls! and good ones that make me happy (thank god finally).
MY 21st BIRTHDAY IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH!!!!
I am getting:
my teeth whitened
my hair cut and colored (dark red with blonde streaks - which i will probably end up dying bright red later on anyway, hah)
and *gasp* yes *gasp* a tattoo. I know, I know. but I worked really hard on sketching it out, getting a really solid outline and then deciding the colors. it sucks that I have to start small but I just know I'll get addicted and eventually I want my entire back done in this crazy whimsical fairytale scene. Ive had this idea for like 2 years so I'm pretty set on it.
*eeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!* happy dance! I have my tattoo all drawn out and as soon as I get paid I'm going to get it! well, depending on the news Friday I suppose. I feel that it's a win win and lose lose situation. I'm not worried, but I am nervous. Everytime I think about it I get a lump in my throat and a knot in my tummy. stop.
the last six hours - phenomenal. and now I get to go sleep for six more before getting up at the buttcrack of dawn to drive down to Amelia. and won't that be fun. I'm looking forward to seeing Eric but I'm afraid of how emotional the drive will most likely be. *sigh* I must think happy thoughts so I can fly. and really, reading all the previous entries on this helped me heal a little I think. What we had was... I mean it really was amazing. I guess looking back I forgot all the good times and how good we really were together for the most part. I didn't realize I wrote so much poetry and all that. Seeing all that love - makes me almost jealous of my past self but... you can't make someone love you and you just have to treasure what you had and keep living. He's such a beautiful boy and I'm glad I was the one lucky enough to have that in my life for almost 3 years. but enough of that. I'm glad I came back here. I think having a place to really be myself and be open about everything and keep track of all the good things in my life will help me so much. I don't plan on writing too much about the past, just the present and hopes for the future :-) I feel good about this.
Thanks Eric, for suggesting lj therapy, haha.
I went putt-putting!!! I haven't been to magic mountain in forever, we won 595 tickets! and I kicked keithers ass in basketball AND air hockey. dudes, i rule.
it was weird though, like a flashback because the only other time I'd been to the MM at Polaris was with Justin and it's funny because I'm talking to him alot now and what's even WEIRDER! is that he and Whitney are like, hooking up. I swear that girl is all up in my leftovers, first Mark now Justin? I love her to death but life is strange.
I stole my golf ball (don't tell). I know, I'm a terrible thief *hide!*
Speaking of theft...
So Hot Topic is "writing me up" for wearing merchandise rather than firing me for stealing.
and this is why I'm quitting. Honestly? Why would I steal a $2 bracelet when I spend almost my entire paycheck there every 2 wks? I hate Devin. I always knew she has it out for me, I don't know how many times I said that she was just looking to get me fired or make me quit - well she got her way. I can NOT believe she tried to accuse me of stealing. and what's worse is that I can't believe that Justine (the DM) backed her up basically.
But I'm glad they didn't fire me because now I can quit. and if anything progresses with keith down the line, then it won't matter because we both won't be working there anymore and really he's more of an asset to the store than me because of all the deaf kids that come in. I'm just appauled and I'm going to make every flaw in the policies and procedures known, and basically just rip to shreds the entire company in my 2wks notice. Laura is quitting too. Devin has had her in tears 3 times in the past 2 weeks, no one deserves to be treated so unfairly in the workplace, or anywhere for that matter. I guess if everything happens for a reason then this was my kick in the face to leave, I've wanted to quit for a while but never had the balls and this was basically rogaine for the hair on the metaphorical ballsack if you will. ew gross.
I don't even mind, I had a wonderful night.
Boys night out blasting in the cool air.
realizing i'll actually have a small amount of money in a week.
having friends that are girls! and good ones that make me happy (thank god finally).
MY 21st BIRTHDAY IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH!!!!
I am getting:
my teeth whitened
my hair cut and colored (dark red with blonde streaks - which i will probably end up dying bright red later on anyway, hah)
and *gasp* yes *gasp* a tattoo. I know, I know. but I worked really hard on sketching it out, getting a really solid outline and then deciding the colors. it sucks that I have to start small but I just know I'll get addicted and eventually I want my entire back done in this crazy whimsical fairytale scene. Ive had this idea for like 2 years so I'm pretty set on it.
*eeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!* happy dance! I have my tattoo all drawn out and as soon as I get paid I'm going to get it! well, depending on the news Friday I suppose. I feel that it's a win win and lose lose situation. I'm not worried, but I am nervous. Everytime I think about it I get a lump in my throat and a knot in my tummy. stop.
the last six hours - phenomenal. and now I get to go sleep for six more before getting up at the buttcrack of dawn to drive down to Amelia. and won't that be fun. I'm looking forward to seeing Eric but I'm afraid of how emotional the drive will most likely be. *sigh* I must think happy thoughts so I can fly. and really, reading all the previous entries on this helped me heal a little I think. What we had was... I mean it really was amazing. I guess looking back I forgot all the good times and how good we really were together for the most part. I didn't realize I wrote so much poetry and all that. Seeing all that love - makes me almost jealous of my past self but... you can't make someone love you and you just have to treasure what you had and keep living. He's such a beautiful boy and I'm glad I was the one lucky enough to have that in my life for almost 3 years. but enough of that. I'm glad I came back here. I think having a place to really be myself and be open about everything and keep track of all the good things in my life will help me so much. I don't plan on writing too much about the past, just the present and hopes for the future :-) I feel good about this.
Thanks Eric, for suggesting lj therapy, haha.