Taste like Addicted
Well...Nothing important has happened in the last few days. Shocker there ehh? Went back to school...soo lame. Yeah I am only there for 2 blocks a day but i still have to wake up. And i hate waking up. I am not much of a sleeper...but if i can still sleep but have to get up, i get angry. And you don't want to see me when i am angry. But yeah coming back to school sucked as always but i atleast got to leave on a good note due to good music. The Muse, Fairweather, Garden State, The Shins, and X to the Z (Motha Fuckers!) have all been played the last few days. All of these fine musical selections atleats put me in a better mood.
Yesterday, i also got a haircut. I have gotton mixed reveiws about it. Some say they really like but they might be faking it. Some also say "what have you done!?" and i don't believe you can lie like that. So i dunno...i guess i like it? Whatever i will have to live with ti for a little bit until may hair grows back.
Work...sucks as usual. It is the same shit everyday and i hate being there sooo much. Over the break i worked 40 hours but still had 2 or 3 days off...i can't remember. It is soo bad. Yeah i need the money so i can buy a new car so my parents can take some 'shut the fuck up's' about me and driving. They don't seem to understand that it was an accident. Yeah i still have not gotton over it all the way...cause it was scary as shit...but i mean i can drive i am not an idiot...i think.
I need to finish my app. for hood now! I have everything i need to fill out done...but i still need to get a teacher rec. and the guidance shit. I think i will do that tommorrow so i can have it done with. If i don't get in...i think i will have to die...that seems fitting. Cause now Katie Day might be going there too. I would have 3 hommies with me! Talk is already going round about an apartment. That would just be tight as shit. So yeah...i kinda need this.
In other news! I need more friends. i hate coming home...looking at this damn computer and seeing nothing. I could not put up an away message and get nothing said to me. That kinda suxs ya know? Ohh man my cd just ended...wait for it...ok better. That cd part would be sad if it was true...wait it was :( So yeah thats how i get the nobody cares stuff. Cause no one talks to me. But i mean whatever. I am also tired of being uncomfortable. Like i dunno. Some people who shouldn't make me uncomfortable make me really nervous. I can't just get over it and i hate it.
WAIT FOR IT! A GOOD NOTE! Soooooo a girl from my work...named Ashley...what do you know...another Ashley. well she said that she likes me and could see something happening between us...but she has a boyfriend. Well what kinda shit is that?! She told me whenever her and her boyfriend fight...the retarded says "why don't you just leave me for that guy you work with...Matt?" Well my question to him would have to be why doesn't she just be a good girlfriend and listen (Scott came up with that haha) I mean come on! Yeah my confidence isn't there but atleast i know i can be a good boyfriend and have a personality. But i don't think girls are in the market for personality these days. I have seen so many rejects, assholes, dueschbags, and failures with the hot chicks...it isn't even funny! I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT! Well hopefully she will break up with him soon so i am not as lonely as i am right now. I need to start trying to forget...or move on. And i mean it isn't like what happened to me was just last week. I gave it time before i went searching. So i feel better about myself.
EVERYONE! Scott's b-day is on the 29th! Matt can not forget! i am pretty bad when it comes to this shit. So if anyone wants to come up with an idea of what we can do for him let me know! Ok i am done for now.