"Time's a-Wastin'"
Reading Meghan's journals always inspires me to add some self-absorbed drama of my own to the internet. So here goes...
Haven't been here in a while. I'm on kind of an internet high right now. I just spent the last hour looking at all the high school kids on Facebook. I'm intensely nostalgic for all things Maine right now - as always. I can't describe it... I like it here, I just feel like I'm wasting my time. I mean, I'm not going to end up here, and I'm putting myself through so much crap for a place that, ultimately, won't mean that much to me. Meanwhile, everyone else, it seems, is back up there, having the times of their lives and getting real things accomplished. Like, every time I go home, school is the last thing I want to talk about, because I don't want anything to interfere with my "soaking-up-Maineness". But everyone else is having such a great time at school that that's all we ever talk about, and I never have anything to say!
I think... I mean, it's good for me to be down here, and I'm happy here and it's a good place and good people yada yada yada. But I belong somewhere else.
Dyanna says that I make myself feel outcast because I always focus on what's different about me from everyone else, but I can't help it! I AM a different person - I just am! It's always been true, it's just that at home, I know how to deal with my differences. Here, everything is so different that my differences only seem more pronounced than ever.
I don't think I'm making much sense right now, and I hate to be one of those whiny, nothing is ever good enough girls, and I don't mean to be. It's just that I feel like my real life won't start until I graduate and get back up north. I'm sick of wasting time...
Haven't been here in a while. I'm on kind of an internet high right now. I just spent the last hour looking at all the high school kids on Facebook. I'm intensely nostalgic for all things Maine right now - as always. I can't describe it... I like it here, I just feel like I'm wasting my time. I mean, I'm not going to end up here, and I'm putting myself through so much crap for a place that, ultimately, won't mean that much to me. Meanwhile, everyone else, it seems, is back up there, having the times of their lives and getting real things accomplished. Like, every time I go home, school is the last thing I want to talk about, because I don't want anything to interfere with my "soaking-up-Maineness". But everyone else is having such a great time at school that that's all we ever talk about, and I never have anything to say!
I think... I mean, it's good for me to be down here, and I'm happy here and it's a good place and good people yada yada yada. But I belong somewhere else.
Dyanna says that I make myself feel outcast because I always focus on what's different about me from everyone else, but I can't help it! I AM a different person - I just am! It's always been true, it's just that at home, I know how to deal with my differences. Here, everything is so different that my differences only seem more pronounced than ever.
I don't think I'm making much sense right now, and I hate to be one of those whiny, nothing is ever good enough girls, and I don't mean to be. It's just that I feel like my real life won't start until I graduate and get back up north. I'm sick of wasting time...