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I'm terrified of life.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one of my friends who's nervous about going to college. As excited a I am to start over in a new place, I'm also anxious as all hell. I mean, I'm sure I'll be fine eventually, but I've never had that major adventure streak like other people do. My streak is relatively tame - I'm the first to jump into the pool or go on a roller coaster. But change, big-time change, and I do not get along. I'm afraid to be away from home without my friends and family. I had a nervous breakdown in Florida surrounded by friends and my sister because I was sick and couldn't get a hold of my mom. I just hope nothing major happens that makes my roommate think I'm a nervous wreck.
What if I die alone?
Seriously. Like, I know this is a lot to be freaking out about at once, but I don't know, one anxiety leads to another, I guess. Maybe I'm prone to catastrophic thinking (though usually I'm optimistic) when it comes to change. But what if I don't find anyone during college and then I'm stuck in a school teaching for 11 hours a day and don't have time to date or meet anyone outside of work because I'm so wrapped up in my school life and then I'm just the pathetic friend who was "too busy" to find someone?
Yeesh, I'm starting to depress myself.
Well, to make light of that situation. I'd like to expose this blog to some of its inspiration, the beautiful blog of
miss hulaseventy on Blogspot. I stumbled across her flickr and have since become cyber-obsessed with her photography and documentation of life in Portland with her kids and husband. Seriously, I want this to be my life.
I'm also trying to
beautify everything around me and try to figure out what I actually want out of life. Expect a massive to-do list to be posted as soon as I get around to writing it.
Also, Mrs. Lambert had her baby! Maria Katherine, born around 4:30 on April 4, 2009, 7 lb. 13 oz. by c-section. Both baby and mom are doing great and her pictures are beautiful. I won't post them here, but she's absolutely gorgeous. Everyone in the music department is absolutely gushing. =]
That's all for now. I'm dying for spring break (4 more days!).
Peace,
Nikki
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one of my friends who's nervous about going to college. As excited a I am to start over in a new place, I'm also anxious as all hell. I mean, I'm sure I'll be fine eventually, but I've never had that major adventure streak like other people do. My streak is relatively tame - I'm the first to jump into the pool or go on a roller coaster. But change, big-time change, and I do not get along. I'm afraid to be away from home without my friends and family. I had a nervous breakdown in Florida surrounded by friends and my sister because I was sick and couldn't get a hold of my mom. I just hope nothing major happens that makes my roommate think I'm a nervous wreck.
What if I die alone?
Seriously. Like, I know this is a lot to be freaking out about at once, but I don't know, one anxiety leads to another, I guess. Maybe I'm prone to catastrophic thinking (though usually I'm optimistic) when it comes to change. But what if I don't find anyone during college and then I'm stuck in a school teaching for 11 hours a day and don't have time to date or meet anyone outside of work because I'm so wrapped up in my school life and then I'm just the pathetic friend who was "too busy" to find someone?
Yeesh, I'm starting to depress myself.
Well, to make light of that situation. I'd like to expose this blog to some of its inspiration, the beautiful blog of
miss hulaseventy on Blogspot. I stumbled across her flickr and have since become cyber-obsessed with her photography and documentation of life in Portland with her kids and husband. Seriously, I want this to be my life.
I'm also trying to
beautify everything around me and try to figure out what I actually want out of life. Expect a massive to-do list to be posted as soon as I get around to writing it.
Also, Mrs. Lambert had her baby! Maria Katherine, born around 4:30 on April 4, 2009, 7 lb. 13 oz. by c-section. Both baby and mom are doing great and her pictures are beautiful. I won't post them here, but she's absolutely gorgeous. Everyone in the music department is absolutely gushing. =]
That's all for now. I'm dying for spring break (4 more days!).
Peace,
Nikki