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I had this dream this morning:
I had a baby, a little girl about 2 months old. I was terribly frustrated because I wasn't getting things right. Specifically in the dream I remember trying to breastfeed her and it not going well, and trying to wear her in a baby wrap and the whole thing just being ill-fitting and unsucessful. Then at some point I put her on a bed because she needed to have a diaper change, she was lying face down and then I ran off to do something and forgot that she was on the bed. I was in another room and went running to where she was because she was crying that blood-curlding, quavering, heart-rending cry that the little ones have and found that she had vomited. And as I was cleaning her milky-vomited face, she gave me such a frowny look of baby reproachment as she was crying, it was terrible. Not so weird to dream about problems with breastfeeding and baby-wearing as these are things that I've not done, not being a mother yet. But the whole leaving her on the bed and *forgetting* her for a little while is upsetting to think about, I've never done that to any of the children that have been in my care over the years. Stupid anxiety dreams!
I had a baby, a little girl about 2 months old. I was terribly frustrated because I wasn't getting things right. Specifically in the dream I remember trying to breastfeed her and it not going well, and trying to wear her in a baby wrap and the whole thing just being ill-fitting and unsucessful. Then at some point I put her on a bed because she needed to have a diaper change, she was lying face down and then I ran off to do something and forgot that she was on the bed. I was in another room and went running to where she was because she was crying that blood-curlding, quavering, heart-rending cry that the little ones have and found that she had vomited. And as I was cleaning her milky-vomited face, she gave me such a frowny look of baby reproachment as she was crying, it was terrible. Not so weird to dream about problems with breastfeeding and baby-wearing as these are things that I've not done, not being a mother yet. But the whole leaving her on the bed and *forgetting* her for a little while is upsetting to think about, I've never done that to any of the children that have been in my care over the years. Stupid anxiety dreams!