bones sinking like stones...
i'm trying to latch onto something.
i'm trying to feel something.
but i don't.
mexico for six weeks.
will consist of : great food, too much margaritas and adios mother fuckers, as well as drunken hook ups with most likely forgettable boys.
that doesn't make me "happy"
but i guess i'm excited.
i'm excited to leave for 6 weeks and see how this place changes.
how all my boys change.
who will still want to talk to me and who has forgotten my name.
i always have this constant "back to the future" thought.
i want to fast forward and see where i am in a year or two.
who has come into my life and who has left.
i want to see who works with me.
people always think it's so unrealistic that i don't believe in marriage and being "in love"
but honestly... who could put up with me?
i miss school. obviously not the academic aspect, but you get the drift. i miss being able to walk upstairs and hang out with all my guy friends... i miss my room mate; she's practically my other half. i miss my lezzie lover whom i will be rooming with next year. i absolutely cannot wait until i drive out to school at the end of summer. i don't know who my driving mate will be but i know it will be a blast.
i'm going to get my life together when i go back to school. and i know that is such a procrastinator statement but i really must be determined to do so. i'll buy a blackberry or some shit. i'll be organized. until then i will remain totally and utterly...
unmanageable.
i'm trying to feel something.
but i don't.
mexico for six weeks.
will consist of : great food, too much margaritas and adios mother fuckers, as well as drunken hook ups with most likely forgettable boys.
that doesn't make me "happy"
but i guess i'm excited.
i'm excited to leave for 6 weeks and see how this place changes.
how all my boys change.
who will still want to talk to me and who has forgotten my name.
i always have this constant "back to the future" thought.
i want to fast forward and see where i am in a year or two.
who has come into my life and who has left.
i want to see who works with me.
people always think it's so unrealistic that i don't believe in marriage and being "in love"
but honestly... who could put up with me?
i miss school. obviously not the academic aspect, but you get the drift. i miss being able to walk upstairs and hang out with all my guy friends... i miss my room mate; she's practically my other half. i miss my lezzie lover whom i will be rooming with next year. i absolutely cannot wait until i drive out to school at the end of summer. i don't know who my driving mate will be but i know it will be a blast.
i'm going to get my life together when i go back to school. and i know that is such a procrastinator statement but i really must be determined to do so. i'll buy a blackberry or some shit. i'll be organized. until then i will remain totally and utterly...
unmanageable.