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I texted my friend this morning, "Hello sembreak! Hello boredom!" And, indeed, that is what sembreak feels like. After all the hullabaloos, which I call schoolwork, I'm suddenly left with nothing to do. This is a first! All my life, I never really worked as hard as I did this past semester. (Tamad ako! Haha!) This is the first time I've felt exhaustion take its toll on my body, to the extent that I begin to rely on coffee in order to sustain my energy for more work. It was fun, nonetheless.
Things I learned this semester:
- Don't judge a book by its cover. Because of certain events that happened in the past, our batch was reshuffled. Instead of being block mates for the entire four years of our college, by third year we got mixed with other people from other classes. I really did not think too much of it. "Isn't it good? We get to be with other people." That's what came into my mind. But that's not exactly the point of this learning. (I'm digressing again.) During the first day of classes, I saw all my classmates--old and new. Being a person who did not really care much about other people, I did not really mind. When other people were talking about our new classmates, I listened silently. But that does not mean I do not have my own first impressions. I do. It's just that, I don't take my first impressions too seriously. As I learned more about my new classmates, I realized that many of the first impressions, or more aptly put, stereotypes that I believed, have been proven untrue. I got shocked by a lot of them, even. Because of that, I got reminded by one of the things that have been taught to me when I was in high school: Never judge people by their outer appearance, and abolish your belief in stereotypes.
- Hardwork = Success. Many things during the 1st semester have led me to start striving hard. At one point, I felt like I've been left behind by people because of my laziness. It made me feel bad knowing that everyone is working twice or thrice more than I am. I got used to getting good grades without working my ass off that much. It only realized recently that what I was doing is the mediocrity that I so hated; that what I was doing is an insult to those who are striving hard to get good grades. I realized that being good just isn't enough, and it is better to be the best. I've been focusing on my art for too long, and it's about time to get back to real business.
- Smile & laugh. Always. College life is stressing, especially when you take it to heart. Finishing deadlines, making sure everything's perfect, studying for tests, leaving for school during non-school days just for group meetings, sacrificing a day's sleep just for schoolwork--all these really shook the emotional stability I once had (and currently regaining). At times, I got so pissed that I end up working in a bad mood. At one point, I lost interest in talking and being with people altogether. Those were the dark times of my semester. But during the last few days of the semester, when the pile of work was at its peak, I learned how to enjoy doing things amidst great pressure. During that time, I did not even realize how heavy workload was. I just did it, and did it with a smile. Indeed, things really lighten up, no matter how heavy they are, when they are done with a smile.
- Never take sides in friendships. How many times have I mentioned this before? But this lesson never really sank into my system until the time I had to choose sides came. Well, I never chose a side, and I think it is much better that way. Facing a situation where two of your friends are not in good terms and you become stuck in the middle, the only thing to do is to quietly support both of them, and encourage them to be friends again. Agreeing with a friend, when she's talking bad about the other is one of the worst things one can do because it will definitely hurt the other. I let them talk, then leave them be. I'm pro peace yo! I can't stand it when I'm not in good terms with anyone.
- No man is an island. I've always been used to being alone. I prefer solitude because it allowed me to play with my thoughts for long periods of time, and that is what relaxes me the most aside from doing pseudo-yoga in my tiny room. But with the various group works that the professors have been throwing at us, I eventually learned how to work in a group. There were times when I realized that it's impossible for me to acheive this without the help of others; and it's impossible to succeed if we weren't a group. Take TV Prod for example. If we were 10 people instead of the original 12, we would not be called Sanauno Productions because Sanauno is composed of Erika, Andro, Ayin, Eka, Jackie, Aunj, John, Kirby, Julie, Frances, Keisha and I. Same goes with the Ineffable Mix, the Psych group, the Triple A: Ad.Apt.Able Advertising Agency group (I really love the title! Kudos Esfrey!), the Ethnicity group, the CA1 group, the Sappho group (Haha! See our music video!), etc. Even though I decided to be alone for my Scriptwriting project, which had its ups and downs, I'd still prefer to work in groups.
I was browsing my 4th year high school planner a while ago, though. I was trying to look for the quote Momi Iris used to write often about being good and best, but instead I found the silly quotes Pauline wrote.
"The more, the many!"
"Give a man a bat, and he becomes batman!" (A parody of the Chinese proverb: Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. But teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.)
I remembered being called fickle recently. I can't remember why I was told that, though. Somehow I forgot. I remember being called shallow a long time ago. I also forgot why I was told that. For both those instances, they were meant to be compliments. I'd beg to differ, though. Being fickle and shallow is not something I'd be fond of... Although I really can be fickle at times, in the sense that... Why am I fickle again? I just looked at the dictionary. I'm not fickle! Nor am I a shallow person (and this one is quite obvious). Hahaha. I remembered and just found it amusing.
I got scolded lately and I didn't really like it. Mind your business. Haha. I got scolded last night and I also did not like it. Understand the situation more. Hahaha.
Time started: Can't remember
Time finished: 12:11
It's Lolo's birthday in 4 days!
Zoe'll be 20 in 2 days!
I just watched the Hana Kimi Special a while ago. I wish TVU still had Japanese channels because watching on KeyHole TV is a struggle. Anyway, I'll wait for the torrent for a clearer version. I loved it though. Sano: Chanto iu yo. Mizuki ga suki. Kyaaaa~! <3