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Last na talaga 'to ngayon. Sadyang mareklamo at maarte at maldita at nakakabuwiset lang ako ngayong gabi.
Kelan kaya darating ang araw na mararamdaman ko na hindi ko na pasan ang problema ng buong mundo?
I wanna be carefree like other people. I feel like I've lost my childhood due to my parents forcing me to act mature at a very young age. How I envy other people who could just be happy everyday, without much care about what's going to happen next.
And here I am making many sacrifices in order to lighten the load of my parents' burdens (although they're unrealized). And here I am trying to think two steps ahead of everyone else because I "really lack what you call, foresight". And here I am desperately pushing myself to the limits because I want to be able to take the next step with as little problems as possible.
No, I just can't have fun because there are a lot of responsibilities being passed onto me right now. I want to drop all of them and walk away, actually. But that'd be a coward's way of facing things.
I wanna have fun too!
There will be time for that when the sembreak comes. For the mean time, I shall concentrate on the tasks and obligations at hand and try to put my heart into them. I'm tired of being half-assed. I'm tired of mediocrity. Luck never existed. A person creates his own luck. Man makes himself.
Gee, I'm just so frustrated and confused with all the things happening around me. I was never a multi-tasker and I only come in two shades: black or white. If you get what I mean.
Kelan kaya darating ang araw na mararamdaman ko na hindi ko na pasan ang problema ng buong mundo?
I wanna be carefree like other people. I feel like I've lost my childhood due to my parents forcing me to act mature at a very young age. How I envy other people who could just be happy everyday, without much care about what's going to happen next.
And here I am making many sacrifices in order to lighten the load of my parents' burdens (although they're unrealized). And here I am trying to think two steps ahead of everyone else because I "really lack what you call, foresight". And here I am desperately pushing myself to the limits because I want to be able to take the next step with as little problems as possible.
No, I just can't have fun because there are a lot of responsibilities being passed onto me right now. I want to drop all of them and walk away, actually. But that'd be a coward's way of facing things.
I wanna have fun too!
There will be time for that when the sembreak comes. For the mean time, I shall concentrate on the tasks and obligations at hand and try to put my heart into them. I'm tired of being half-assed. I'm tired of mediocrity. Luck never existed. A person creates his own luck. Man makes himself.
Gee, I'm just so frustrated and confused with all the things happening around me. I was never a multi-tasker and I only come in two shades: black or white. If you get what I mean.