お金がほしい。。。
its all about dollars and cents at the end of the day....seriously....am on a shopping mode where i just want to spend however i want...when i start to realise that the thing i picked up might not serve its purpose, i decided to just put it back...practicality had the better of me at the end of the day...
i want to travel around as well...but its just the price that is keeping me from exploring....just the travelling costs alone is already enough to convince me to stay in my dorm....its pure boredom....cant wait for school to start....then i realise that my cap is just so dangerously low that its indeed a crisis for me....what have i gotten myself into??!?
fuck
but, nonetheless, i am in japan...
hoping to join the student clubs that i have signed up for...really praying hard that they will reply me soon as i really really wanna join! just when i decided to take the first step out to experiencing something that i really desire, the slow unpromising development seems to put me in doubt....haiz....i am a confused person...yes, i am....but why am i not allowed to be myself? its the society? its my family? or is it just myself....i am confused...not knowing what went wrong and where to change...i know that unless i really detached myself and assumed a new identity will i be totally free....sounds familiar as this is really what i hope to achieve....at least in time to come...
give me hope....no, i should create hope myself...i owe no one but myself an explanation of my actions and belief....i alone.....
i want to travel around as well...but its just the price that is keeping me from exploring....just the travelling costs alone is already enough to convince me to stay in my dorm....its pure boredom....cant wait for school to start....then i realise that my cap is just so dangerously low that its indeed a crisis for me....what have i gotten myself into??!?
fuck
but, nonetheless, i am in japan...
hoping to join the student clubs that i have signed up for...really praying hard that they will reply me soon as i really really wanna join! just when i decided to take the first step out to experiencing something that i really desire, the slow unpromising development seems to put me in doubt....haiz....i am a confused person...yes, i am....but why am i not allowed to be myself? its the society? its my family? or is it just myself....i am confused...not knowing what went wrong and where to change...i know that unless i really detached myself and assumed a new identity will i be totally free....sounds familiar as this is really what i hope to achieve....at least in time to come...
give me hope....no, i should create hope myself...i owe no one but myself an explanation of my actions and belief....i alone.....