friends? well, maybe something has changed
i am no idiot anymore.
i am pretty sure that you felt something had changed, but you are just not going to ask since i am just a friend. you may think that you know it all, well, good for you then. but i am not going to explain myself since i think that is enough.
today's meeting has confirmed my impression of you: a fucking self-centered individual who is only interested in your own perspective even while you claimed to know the other side. u simply keep certain information (which is important) to yourself and present an image where you seemed to be in a disadvantageous situation. but the truth is you had calculated well on your fortunes, and all these facade is nothing more than just a faint. you are indeed clever, maybe the right word is sly, and i am certain about your intelligence which you know it too well...but it is also part of your calculations that you cherry-picked your circumstances, even though these are simply peripheral and do not have a major bearing over the main issue that you are dealing with. well, you are just trying to make your point, and everyone is in one way or another at any point of time doing the same as you, so i am in no position to critique that. but it is also very clear that you are doing way better than what you claim so, i would appreciate it if you stop being so disgustingly deceitful. i ain't going to remain that gullible or simply feign ignorance anymore. if you are looking for affirmations or find people to empathize with you, look elsewhere and stop bothering me.
in the past, i would simply pushed everything aside to make time for you, just as a friend. But now i dont think it is worth putting you before my wants/desire/needs-to put it simply, fuck off. i just don't want to spend time with you.
i don't care what you think of me in suddenly cancelling our prior appointment for i just don't feel like it. you can think whatever of me for all i fucking care, as i am no longer bothered by it anymore.
why?
simply because i no longer want to be following your command in things. i had enough. i was stupid in the past to let you have the control, and that i would sacrifice my convenience for you, as a friend. now, i realized what a fool i was. if you want a companion to talk to, find someone else who has the same free schedule as you. as for me, i am not interested anymore. i am no longer that convenient friend of yours.
my priority takes precedence.
maybe as friends, i was hoping for some form of communication like a harmless how are you? but i guess you don't even do that. well, you would not reveal your whereabouts, whereas i would just reveal mine to you. yup, it is my stupidity. and so from now on, i shall keep my distance.
friend? well, i think you are just an acquaintance whom i had learnt much from. i no longer think i want to remain as a close friend to you. you may know quite a bit of me, but i no longer care how much that is. just like the asshole that i had cut ties with, you two are similar: self-centered assholes to the degree that i am disgusted with. maybe i am the same, well, if that is the case, then i guess just as like poles repel, we should remain as it is.
no communication is the best form of interaction.
well, maybe that is how you see friends, as people who fit your convenience. but i guess i am just not comfortable with that anymore, realizing what a fool i had been in the past. let's just keep our relations simple and direct: you have no needs, you don't contact me. so i shan't bother you with my details; you have no rights to know any more information about me as i don't see the need to reveal anything to you. let's just keep it that way.
i no longer care what you think, and i am definitely not the least interested in your wellbeing. so cyk, take care and fuck off.