depressed...泣きたい
なんてだろう。アニメ『君に届け』見終わってから、なんか自分が憂鬱になった。主人公たちがやっと幸せを見つけた、少しでも、くらい過去をだんだん薄くなって、お互いの気持ちも分かりあいに来た。感動しちゃった。涙も出た。だが、もしそういう風に自分の事情を重ねたら、たぶん僕がそんな勇気が出て来ない。卑怯だ。
a lot have been going through my mind for the past few days. and i am really getting very tired of carrying on. i kept asking myself why had things turned out this way. why had i become such a dark person. きっかけがいつ出たか？ jaded. no, i am more than just jaded.
watching dramas, anime, reading fiction, manga - all these are just ways for me to escape reality. to see what i had hoped for to be realised elsewhere somehow soothes my feelings a little. however, all stories have to come to an end. and when the closing is near, i cant help but feel a sense of emptiness overwhelm me and i soon find myself drown in my own tears....
i want to cry it all out. i want to let it go.
but then, what's next?
a lot have been going through my mind for the past few days. and i am really getting very tired of carrying on. i kept asking myself why had things turned out this way. why had i become such a dark person. きっかけがいつ出たか？ jaded. no, i am more than just jaded.
watching dramas, anime, reading fiction, manga - all these are just ways for me to escape reality. to see what i had hoped for to be realised elsewhere somehow soothes my feelings a little. however, all stories have to come to an end. and when the closing is near, i cant help but feel a sense of emptiness overwhelm me and i soon find myself drown in my own tears....
i want to cry it all out. i want to let it go.
but then, what's next?