Some things never change...
Well, I feel like a little girl...a very good friend scared the hell out of me, not on purpose but nevertheless...I care so much about them. I cried though, combination of not enough sleep and that really fucking scared me. So I followed the advice Rigby had given me the other day, cuddle up with a stuffed animal, so once again my bear was pulled from his usual resting spot on my bed to comfort me. I forget why Rigby had suggested cuddling with a stuffed animal before but he's been pulled out a lot these past few days. The other night I got really home sick I get like that occasionally when I know that I won't see my mom for a few days and she's in a place where her cell phone doesn't get service. At least I know I have Melanie, when I get married I want that relationship to be like the relationship I have with her except it will be a guy. Aww Melanie I don't think I can say enough how much I love you and how much you mean to me. You brighten up my day when you call or write me a note. I love all my friends but you have been there for the longest. I love having you to come talk to if I'm stressed, worried, nervous, or confused. Or even if I just want to laugh about things from the past, like that battlefield or the cat pissing on your bed (I promise you will laugh about that one day). I love how you come over and we can just sit around and you'll put your hand on my leg than realize a minute later that you put it there. I also love sappy emotional things which this entry has become so I think I'm going to go curl up in bed now with my stuffed animals and dream of happier things and my Chipotle's burrito that I'm getting tomorrow. <3MW