Tsuyoshi 4/10/2009 Concert report
This is NOT a full concert report. fluffy87 has a good compilation that she is going to post about she wakes up. I am just going to talk about a small part.
So today, Tsuyoshi told us about his pet rearing experience,
In the past, I had a pet. He had a terminal disease. The doctor told me "he cannot be cured, so while he's alive, please show him as much love as you can." When I asked how long he had left., the doctor said "about a month maybe." Of course, it's painful and sad, but I told myself, if I wasn't able to accept this pain and this sadness, then I would lose the right to love this child (the pet), and also I wont able to become the love of this child. So, I said: Ok! Let's face this positively. Then... maa... animals aren't about to talk right? But I would definitely do my best, while you are still alive, I would do my best to love you, to be by your side always. And he always looked at me as if he understands what I was telling him, like "I understand, even though I am unable to talk." He looked at me with eyes that seemed to say "Yes!" Anyway, because I was very worried about him, I was unable to sleep, so I was always sleeping with him in the living room, no matter what, we had to be together. In the end, he left suddenly.
So it's like this, life is decided in an instance, what I learned from my pet leaving me, is that if you have things to say, please do say them well. Like your emotions and what you feel, please do let them interwine. (nicole: and then a whole bunch of things that didn't make sense to me, so skippp, sorry). But anyway, if you need to say anything, please say it. In this way, you would not regret. Afterall, we are alive now, we are currently living, and only NOW we are living. If we think of it this way, then please speak your mind, express our emotions. I believe everyone can do it. I hope that every can face your love one frankly, send your love and spend quality time with them. Hmm.. I am sorry, this is becoming long. I have said this before just now, it's just many things in my heart, and when I think about them, I write them into songs. Let us listen to some music next. The next song, please just sit and listen, that would do....
And.. Tsuyoshi sang... 〔綴る」「歴史」
.. During the encore part, the audiences sang him a Birthday song, and when he came out to thank everyone, he spoke more about the pet.
Without doubt, a person's growth is an important process, and a beautiful thing. Just now, I talked a little bit about my pet. That child, even though the doctor said he only had a month left to live, in the end, he lived for 8 months. But, still within a year, he left me. ...hmmm.. how should I put this? It's really a very sad thing, but after all, he has been by my side for a long time. This is already an awesome thing, I keep telling myself this.
(Source: A variety of Chinese / Japanese blogs. Note: This is not an exact transcript obviously, but just a brief version of what he said.)
So, the speculations online in both the Japanese world and Chinese fandom is that, the pet he mentioned is Kenshiro, because Tsuyoshi mentioned DOG (犬), and apparently, the only dog he has had for a long time is Kenshiro. Afterall, Kenshiro is also an old dog, so it kind of makes sense. But it breaks my heart, because I keep thinking about how lonely Tsuyoshi must be feeling right now if really Kenshiro is gone. According to the fan reports, he seemed to have accepted it pretty well, and besides during the song [purple stage] where he sang back facing the audience (so everyone thinks he's crying), he seemed to be in a pretty good mood.
I will miss Kenshiro too if it's real, because I am sure he's special to Kou-chan as well.
So today, Tsuyoshi told us about his pet rearing experience,
In the past, I had a pet. He had a terminal disease. The doctor told me "he cannot be cured, so while he's alive, please show him as much love as you can." When I asked how long he had left., the doctor said "about a month maybe." Of course, it's painful and sad, but I told myself, if I wasn't able to accept this pain and this sadness, then I would lose the right to love this child (the pet), and also I wont able to become the love of this child. So, I said: Ok! Let's face this positively. Then... maa... animals aren't about to talk right? But I would definitely do my best, while you are still alive, I would do my best to love you, to be by your side always. And he always looked at me as if he understands what I was telling him, like "I understand, even though I am unable to talk." He looked at me with eyes that seemed to say "Yes!" Anyway, because I was very worried about him, I was unable to sleep, so I was always sleeping with him in the living room, no matter what, we had to be together. In the end, he left suddenly.
So it's like this, life is decided in an instance, what I learned from my pet leaving me, is that if you have things to say, please do say them well. Like your emotions and what you feel, please do let them interwine. (nicole: and then a whole bunch of things that didn't make sense to me, so skippp, sorry). But anyway, if you need to say anything, please say it. In this way, you would not regret. Afterall, we are alive now, we are currently living, and only NOW we are living. If we think of it this way, then please speak your mind, express our emotions. I believe everyone can do it. I hope that every can face your love one frankly, send your love and spend quality time with them. Hmm.. I am sorry, this is becoming long. I have said this before just now, it's just many things in my heart, and when I think about them, I write them into songs. Let us listen to some music next. The next song, please just sit and listen, that would do....
And.. Tsuyoshi sang... 〔綴る」「歴史」
.. During the encore part, the audiences sang him a Birthday song, and when he came out to thank everyone, he spoke more about the pet.
Without doubt, a person's growth is an important process, and a beautiful thing. Just now, I talked a little bit about my pet. That child, even though the doctor said he only had a month left to live, in the end, he lived for 8 months. But, still within a year, he left me. ...hmmm.. how should I put this? It's really a very sad thing, but after all, he has been by my side for a long time. This is already an awesome thing, I keep telling myself this.
(Source: A variety of Chinese / Japanese blogs. Note: This is not an exact transcript obviously, but just a brief version of what he said.)
So, the speculations online in both the Japanese world and Chinese fandom is that, the pet he mentioned is Kenshiro, because Tsuyoshi mentioned DOG (犬), and apparently, the only dog he has had for a long time is Kenshiro. Afterall, Kenshiro is also an old dog, so it kind of makes sense. But it breaks my heart, because I keep thinking about how lonely Tsuyoshi must be feeling right now if really Kenshiro is gone. According to the fan reports, he seemed to have accepted it pretty well, and besides during the song [purple stage] where he sang back facing the audience (so everyone thinks he's crying), he seemed to be in a pretty good mood.
I will miss Kenshiro too if it's real, because I am sure he's special to Kou-chan as well.