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Caugh "Much Ado about Nothing" at Fort Canning last evening.
It was not too bad a play... in fact it is inspiring me to read Shakespeare and my Oscar Wilde plays... I do miss my Lit days. Maybe I really should start studying again. But I am so busy at work. In fact I am typing this in office right now. I mean I guess, I can squeeze in studying by sacrificing my social life + tv? I am feeling restless and stagnant. I really feel like studying something. Maybe it is really time to look around and see what I can study.. and if it work-related.. maybe I can see if my Company is willing to sponsor me... I need to look around and discuss with boss during my appraisal. But then again if it is not work-related, I might have more fun with it, train the "creative" side of my brain? But then again, I always feel history is very logical... Hmmz.. I guess my goal this year would be 1) lose another 4 kg (yes yes my weighing machine showed that I hve achieve 1 kg of my total weight loss aim hahahahhaha) and 2) enroll myself in something. Hopefully I can convince someone to pay hahaha.
Back to the play ( I realise I am very "jumpy", I jump around topics, but then again I am almost always like this). It was supposed to be play in the park, pinics etc.. as usual being lazy busy me, I didn't do anything other than bring a mat. We went to Liang Court to get some sushi, chips + water for our pinic. Happily settled at Fort Canning and started talking to Ms Cher, I saw 2 very familiar faces walking towards my direction. Sense of panic. I flip around and stared hard at Ms Cher's phone. Yes even till now, this is my instinctive reaction when I see the 2 of them together. Sigh. And of cos, I started obsessing at their backs, staring hard at them. Until Ms Cher's friends joined us. I got distracted and they got lost as the crowd triggered in and more nacks were placed between us. All I could say was "suay". But honestly, when I was telling Ms Cher about it... I realise I didn't feel much. I looked at him (and her, of cos) from a distance. And the whole experience was just.... looked upon from a distance. As I was lying on my back, looking at the night sky and suntec skyline.. i couldn't help but think, when will the guy who will give me the that kind of feelings appear? It is not so much about lack of guys as opposed to lack of feelings for me nowadays. I don't think I am (that) picky... but it is hard to settle when you are more aware of what you want.. I am not saying that he is what I want.. but becos of the whole experience, it made me reflect and realise that there are somethings that cannot be compromise.. and of cos, there are some feelings that are more important than others. So I guess, I am still waiting for "cupid to strike". Or rather cupid to strike someone that I have good vibes for! =)
Threw away the flowers QH gave me on Vdae.. due to advice that dried flowers = lan tao hua.
Hmmz.. I do not have additional good tao hua nowadays.. but at least the not so good wans are slowly dissappearing from my llife haha. LH was saying the only day she realise the "neng cao" is just for my stress relief.. but as more and more work (stress) pile up, I become more and more irritated with a lot of things. So unless, you know what I am talking about and can let me complain... if not.. i am just too tired to make small talk. Come to think about it, sometimes I am even too tired to complain after work. I think I talk to much at work haha.
Went to Hua Ting with family to celebrate mom's birthday. The food was not bad, we have dim sum + roast duck. It is actually quite nice.. and it costs less than $30 per pax and we are all stuffed to the brim! And becos of that I am trying to crawl back $50-$100 from my brother. Cos erm.. i ended paying more for daddy's birthday dinner.. aiyah.. they are 2 persons leh! So kor kor say before split equally among 3 of us mah hahahhaa. I muz remembered to remind him again tmr at dinner hahaha. Yesh I am useless broke =P Apparently my family are trying to get me to invest more money with them in order to help me "save" more -_- I guess I really need it, esp if I have to depend on myself for retirement... Muz be very nice + doting to my future nieces and nephews (note to self)
It is going to be another busy week. My Management testers and auditors are both coming in to do testing and it is 2 different sets of testing. Grrl. seriously one of the testing is not even supposed to be under me.. but somehow it become my pasar. sigh. Oh well. And I am seriously worried about what issues they will identify during the testing. So I will be following them around to do walkthrough to obtain a better understanding (and to scream at them for asking stupid qns haah) of the new system. I hope it will go well. But it will mean half my time next week will be spent going around with them which mean I got to work late again to cover my other work. I have to keep reminding my management testers that I have OTHER work I do not just do their co-ordination only! Grrl.
Small boss coming back in 1 wk time.. but I am also irritated with him. He is just too nice! N hate it is we (I lah) told the other side NO already and quite forcefully. But suddenly he turn ard and say maybe we can seek middle ground @)*$&)@)!*#*&$$)@)) POS. What middleground??? Obviously I AM RIGHT lor. Grrrrrllllllllllll, he is just trying to be nice and make things easier for them. But why should we do it at our expense? Maybe that is why they all dunwan to talk to me... even niaming to me why he is not around. Apparently 1 of them called him on his mobile, cos he is more negotiable and I refuse to budge. Please lah, if you want to convince me, give me good rationale, dun give me things like other country say ok, why is spore being difficult? or when I give you my reasoning like why are we not testing the other service provider if you insist to test ABC. They are performing similar functions for us. And you keep quiet!?!? Throw my arguement back into my face lah, if you have good enough reasoning and not becos, it is convenient for you to test 1 and not the other. And don't use other countries to throw it in my face. I am afterall an ex-auditor who do SOX before and who has a friend who specialise in US Auditing.... The problem with the other countries are they don't challenge them when they ask stupid questions. They just do for them.. prob cos they are not even sure what they themselves are doing. Bleah. Yesh I been very irritaed with my regional colleagues. They been asking me alot of stupid questions and we been sending each other not very friendly emails haha. I spend alot of time being angry with them and trying to shoot back emails haha. LH was saying my boss will have a shock when he come back and see the emails I am sending cos he is Mr Nice Guy *pui* So I decided to forewarn him hahahaha. I think he concluded that I am too stressout at work and he feel bad that I am handling all this alone.. so he send sms to tell me to hve a good break over e wkend blah blah *pui pui* I am in office yesterday and now again tody. N they are testing the fire alarm today! Grrl. Yes I have a lot of pendup anger. Which explain why I need to find a guy who can understand all this rubbish. An auditor/ex-auditor/finance personnel will be good. I do not want to have to explain what is SOX/Controls before I can launched in complaints cos by then I will just be "forget it. I don't want to talk anymore"
Anyway yes Mr Nice Guy decided to be nice.. seek what middleground. Which I hate it, our consensus is already no lor. Then.. u suddenly want to be nice. Then in future, they will all find him when I say no. And most imptly, we already agree that this thing I handle (my colleague pointed this out to me) which i replied... he is still my boss, so he can override me (#&$(#@_!. I think he know that I am irritated. Anyway I have decided if he want to do it, then he can do it himself. I AM NOT GOING TO FOLLOW UP AND DO THE SHIT WORK AFTER THIS. Cos as usual, he agree but work is done by me. IRRITATED.
Okie I need to relax, breathe and be nice cos i will be seeing them tmr. N maybe I am bias but KPMG is so much better. Not I want to say lah.. but at least the auditors ask me more intelligent questions and they know when not to push their luck etc. My testers.. not 1 of them from KPMG lor.. bleah. hahahahahh yes I am bias!!!! N it i back to sending out more emails and then cycling later this evening with Daffy and Lu Lu...