Letter to Juliet
Dearest Juliet,
I am twenty four years old and have never been in love. I will be turning twenty five on November thirteenth 2010. I often wonder why it has taken so long for me to fall deeply in love as I so badly want. I know that I am still very young and still have a long life ahead of me but as I see people younger then myself finding the kind of love that makes the world stand still, I cannot help but wonder, why not me? When you want to be in love so badly, twenty four years can feel like a lifetime. Even you, sweet Juliet, found your perfect Romeo at such a young age.
I have come to the thought that maybe the reason that I have not found a man to fall in love with is because of the fact that I am in a wheelchair and cannot walk. I can still do many things on my own such as speak, feel, write, type, laugh, smile, hug, I can do pretty much everyone else can do but most importantly, I can love. I can love with all my heart and feel that I have so much love to give so it makes me wonder why I have not been able to give it away as I wish. I am a very happy person and appreciate the many blessing that I have received in my life but I always feel that something has been missing and that is love. All my life I have believed in fate and that there is someone out there for every single person in the world and we are all meant to fall in love but each year that I go without true love, the kind of love that even time will lie down and be still for, I find myself slowing losing this belief of fate.
Shouldn’t there be love for even the most “flawed?” I never really looked at my condition as a “flaw” but I feel that a man might look at it as a flaw and for this reason they do not bother with me but Juliet, isn’t there a man out there, a good man who can look past all this? Nobody is perfect. Even love itself is not perfect but shouldn’t two imperfect things be able to things perfect? The love that I can give is perfect. I want a love of my own so bad Juliet, so bad that as I sit and write this tears fall from my eyes. I do not need the kind of love a Grandparent or Father or even a good friend can give. I have already been blessed with that kind of love. I want the kind of love that can make you feel more alive then you already are. The kind of love that can keep you warm at night. I want to be able to look into my lover’s eyes and know that he is all mine and that I am all his, and nothing in this world can change that sweet feeling. I want to feel more then safe in his arms. I want to be held so close is his loving arms that not even the most greatest storm that the world has felt can free me from his embrace. I want so many things from love that I can feel in my heart and see in my mind but cannot put into words. For the things that I long for are too sweet for words. I have had several kisses in my life. Kisses from boys who I do not know as men now and know that none of them never were and never could be my true love. None of their kisses have been the kiss. They have not been kisses so sweet that I wanted to do nothing more then kiss them until I could not feel my lips any longer. I want to feel a kiss so sweet and tender that every bone in my body feels so numb that I cannot move except to bring my lover closer to me. Friends that have wanted me to find this kind of sweet love have told me to use such things as the internet to it but I want to find it the way you have Juliet. It was so very natural for you. Out of nowhere there was your Romeo. Standing there, right there in that very sport so that you could find each other at that very moment. Fate brought you two together. God brought you two together as he has brought so many people together in beautiful love. Why not me, Juliet? Why am I left waiting and wondering where my sweet, true love is or if it is even out there for me?
You see Juliet, I know what love should feel like and know that I have every right in this world of have it for my own but why has not found me yet? Am I crazy Juliet? Am I crazy for wanting love so badly? Am I asking too much from fate and from God himself? God has already given me so many beautiful things in my life. Has he already given all the beauty he has to give me and has left out the gift of true love? I thought that feeling the kind of love that I seek is the most beautiful gift of all time. Am I an exception from this sweet and powerful gift? Is love meant for me Juliet? If it is, please send me a sign that it is or if you already know of my true love please whisper in his perfect ear and tell him that I am here waiting for him and I am waiting for his sweet kiss from his perfect tender lips and that I am more then ready to be held in his perfect arms and feel his loving embrace where I will lay for hours or even days. Please sweet Juliet, tell him as soon as you can. You have a perfect love with Romeo. I want it too. I want love.