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rawr. i had written such a long entry the other night about my weekend, and then it deleted itself and i got realllly mad and said fuck you LJ and never wrote again. But it's a good thing, because it was all garbage. whatever my weekend was, id like to forget some of it. I had a lot of fun, and my life went in a million circles. Nobody knows the real truth so please stop talking about what you THINK happened. I can't fucking breathe without people trying to talk about it. I really love being able to hang out with all my friends. I got to see 40 yr old virgin and play pool with kevin it was the funniest night of my life. well, its int he top 10. I got to chill with greg which was really great. I had such a great time with all the girls this weekend too. I drank, oh no, yea thats when the shit hit the fan. haha ew thats an ugly saying. Had a scene from the notebook, but thats all a big lie.
okay this entry really sucks, but im just so mad my other one erased. right now i dont know wtf to think. my life is like a rollercoaster ride. Im really doing so good though. Nick and I are friends, yea i forgot to mention that. thats all though, friends forever and ever. So you can all stop asking me that. Kevin is my bestest friend ever and i love him very much. get over it.
this week so far has been weird. Monday was like weirdest day ever but a lot of fun. Went to the beach in the rain with all the cool people. After we raced the boys to nicks house and went in the pool and had fun, yeah. At night i went to davids then to bluestones for the fsu/um game. My night was weirder than ever. It took one phone call to make me realize things were not okay like i thought. Tuesday i officially ended the rocketeer life, fuck that, i quit . Today was a normal day. I really have a lot of fun in school sometimes. I got a B in my wood cutting test cause i cut off the line, damnit ! Avi Jess and Eliot are like my favorite kids ever. 6th period i thought was going to be horrible because kevin wasn't there, but then he got there and the funniest thing ever happened. We now have to bake our teacher a cake to compensate for our mistake haha. After school i went to bellantes with katie and then we went to her house. Then i went to outback steakhouse to apply as a hostess, this week i need to go job hunting, this sucks. rawr. Then after outback i went to kevin's house and played video games with him. He has the best game ever ever ever. Its liek crazy taxi but its simpsons, its really like the best! i want katie to go play with me one day because crazy taxi is our thing. After kevins i went back to katies and we just did nothing. I decided i didnt feel like watching the OC cause i missed the 2nd season and im not a tv person so whatever, fuck it. I went to go buy the cakemix and some redbull for tomrorow, then came home.
Forget the talk, theres nothing left to say. What is done is done. We both know we love each other, we just don't belong each with each other. And as much as we miss each other, we both know we don't wanna be together. Things are better now, we're free to do what we please, and can still share and enjoy each others company. I know some things are hard, but there are certain things that come with a break up, seeing other people is one of them. I will always love you no matter what and will always be there for you. And you know that we have a lot of fun as friends, so don't make this hard for yourself or me. We were doing fine. Lets not complicate things. There is a reason why I was never able to go talk to you. Just always remember, nothing is final. And one day if it's meant to be our hearts will come together again. you are my only one ; i love you <3
Tomorrow is the game vs columbusssss. yeaaa biatches.